The/A Paddlester
The/A Paddlester
I am the/a Paddlester
Walking barefoot on the way/course
To the shelter, into the shelter
Of heavenly happiness as gay
My involvements, emotions, sentiments
Include myself, my success and me
Still is the other need, of course
And the lovely time always
Heartful of love, I want to receive
But I am not capable to be/get
I have been so long in/to/into hatred
Now I won't feed conditions alike
I am selfish in case
Of love, if I give to someone
I must and should receive
From each, I gave
This was, - is my policy/path
Even I am against help/ sought
Because I can't expect it back by
And I can't be a selfless flop
Even I am in the way of DESIRE
Fulfilling each plead it asks
And DESIRE in addition is
Giving me PLEASURE
My pleasure and desire
Is not only bashing
It's just having a lovely thing
With a few or some.
It's okay till the case of pleasure
But in clashes at home
Paddlester is bashed off/with
His crucial life's moments
Actually something "a great one"
Maybe Paddlester himself or love
Throughout his course
Through clashes "nonsense"
But only one thing, I agree, belief
Helped me
Was desire only being
The course of Paddlester
Is/was not easy then,
It is not now even
But he is walking master
I believe I am because
Because all through my way
I was controlling and I controlled myself, I believe
And I quit not in the air sway.
The Paddlester believed
Something hindering me
Was my own nature
Of being soft, selfless, honest, bud
Yet, I am unable to
To leave/ keep my nature on/at bay
Actually snake leaves off, old clothing
But I am not even a snake
Instead, my nature is poisoning me
Since/from my childhood
Which was the brittle and fragile wood
A wood tough, so tough to be axed
All types of axes tried; I have
But always failed and kicked
Back by/with my nature
At least now I quit
My writings, and sit
To read and then sleep
Sleep. Sound- sleep.