Chaotic Crush

It will not be a poem, instead a melodious chaos of feelings,

If I had to describe what my heart feels for you

My mind reminds me of your existence, often throughout the day

Those thoughts are like giant waves floating

From all directions and crashing against me.

And there is this question in repeat mode,

What is this feeling and why again and again?

And I will look up to the false ceiling overhead

In search of a sky that can shout at me, listen there is a story.

I will then console my mind, its the result of gluten, or lifestyle stress

That developed in me, the affinity for super-powerful projections.

And yet nothing works, I end up having imaginary conversations with you

But in these unreal talks too, I stammer and forget my lines and am left so confused

And someone calls out, from inside,

Hey - Please catch your breath and calm down.

Words broken, wishes half spoken, wanting to pray

While being afraid, to receive, if prayer is answered,

I shut my mind, Enough!

This is such a chaotic cacophony of confusion!

And the shutdown music of my system would play the recorded melody

I wish there was a way to always be with you,

I wish there was a way to always look at you..