Black Lace

I leered at my reflection in the mirror,

Saw a girl in a black dress, her neck wrapped in a black lace, ready to go for a committal 

Bold and brave

I went to the cemetery searching for the open grave

Where lied my happiness, I was supposed to fill the sepulchre

I was too afraid to reconcile with her

So others enfolded her in darkness

She was addicted to opium haze

I realised I forgot to bring flowers, that's the first time I saw her; numbness. 

Numbness walked in, in a white dress, her hair tied

With flowers in her hand as my throat dried

She looked at me with her classic grimace, 

She knew I'd be there, she knew I was afraid of her glare

She looked down at the brush of grass against her hands, sitting next to me on the ground

I mistook blood for mud stains on her white gown 

Numbness plundered the badge of conscience from my heart and tossed it in the same open grave with a smirk

Like she was aware of what she was doing

Like she knew that it would work

She emplaced her hands on my unclad knee;

Completely contused 

I saw the same contusions on her elegant hand

She looked at my wailing eyes, she was amused 

I was too enervated to keep my eyes open and too petrified to close them

She unbosomed herself in my ears as the wind blew my skirt's hem

She promised she'll free me from the pain

For I'll never have to feel again

She said she'll never leave me alone and love me for evermore

I stared in her smoldering, dark eyes

They were lined from squinting in too many suns, started to look like a void

I've always seen people leave and forget they ever heard my name

But I knew she'll be with me as I grieve so I let her in

She entered my body and annihilated every part

Now I was just a huge scar

I couldn't feel anything except her

I couldn't feel pain, I couldn't feel grief and she had done what she had promised

I couldn't feel anything except her 

I couldn't feel Joy, I couldn't feel peace and she had done what she had promised. 

I didn't want this anymore so I had slit my wrists

Opened every single vein to set her free

But she went astray and became the black lace around my neck with glee

I wanted to feel again so I covered the grave where lied my happiness and went home, not alone, not clean

I leered at the mirror again, saw a girl in a black dress her neck wrapped in a black lace

Ready to go to her own funeral this time

"I love you" she whispered

"Love you too" I said as I disappeared