As the darkness prevails

They asked me what do I do the whole night looking at the ceiling, with no sleep, 

I chuckled and told them that I let the breeze touch my untamed body while I counted the number of times the fan took rounds , 

I told them that I see the world moving from night to morning , 

I told them that I see the sun come up , 

But aahhhhhhh!

I wanted to screech out my voice and say, 

That I see how the world slips into a deep slumber while some swollen eyes remain devoid of sleep, 

That all night with no sleep I try to conquer the noise in head, 

I wanted to tell them that I try to feel , 

Because the only escape I had was to feel , 

To go through it all each day until it was gone, 

To Feel all the years of anger, sorrow, guilt and despair, 

I wanted to tell them that I try to find answers to some unresolved questions , 

Of how they feel so little and I feel so much more, 

I wanted to tell them it was the only time I removed the veil of happiness, 

That it was the only time I could truly fathom myself ,                                 The only time where I allowed myself to feel, feel and feel, 

Because on the other times of the day , 

I feel incapable of doing that. 

Again!! 

They asked me what do I do the whole night looking at the ceiling, with no sleep , 

I chuckled and told them that I let the breeze touch my untamed body while I counted the number of times the fan took rounds .