The noise of Silence

I'm trying to sit still,

Trying to stay quiet,

Just for 10 minutes today.

Suddenly these minutes,

Seem longer than an hour,

I had taken time for granted.

My mind throws out a million thoughts,

All at once; milli-nano seconds apart,

A cacophony in my head.

I'm planning today's breakfast,

Humming my favourite song,

And thinking of my never-ending to do list.

I'm feeling my body twist,

Imagining a stray itch on my back,

Feeling my leg muscles stretch.

My ears are so sensitive now,

Catching the fan's whirring,

Birds chirping and even a distant pooja bell.

My eyes, though closed are moving,

As if trying to look for something,

Unable to bear even a few minutes interruption.

I try to observe my breathing,

I try to focus on my heart beats,

I try and try, to meditate.

I want to start the day on a good note, 

but picking even one nice thing about me,

Feels next to impossible.

The conflicts, guilts, frustrations,

My positive and negative self talks,

Clutter the house in my head.

But I realise it's all ok, 

For once, instead of things around me,

I'm listening to the noise of my silence.