A Habit2 mins 233 2 mins 233
I was very insecure once
I didn’t find a friend that I wanted to be
Had the immense fear of losing everyone around me,
I could feel the pain and cried to get everybody back
But it’s a past now; being alone is a habit I made.
I was the boy of thousand dreams
Found some fireflies also, that kept me inspired
But they’re just pretending, faking the smile of being together,
Now I can realize the inherent nature of mankind
Because it’s now a habit to have a cloudy face all the time.
The solitary dark ambience is my forever friend
She always hears my soul, divides the pain that I have
An unknown lady keeps warming my blood to see them dead,
She murders everybody in silence with the time and patience
It is peaceful to see them in pain that they gifted me in silence.
I wanted to be a friend of everyone
Needed someone to have his hand over my shoulder every time
But no one was there to come beside, everybody passed by.
Hence it’s turned into a habit now, I’ve passed the while
Anti-body is being made against their quizzical smile.
Now, I’m smiling at them hearing the buzzing of that group
They all say I get attracted to the boys
And it is because holding their hands I tell “I’m with you always”.
But today, these don’t make me dusky
Because my ears are getting habituated with their controversy.
It’s now a habit
Looking at stars praying to have a new life
Want to get myself killed and come back with new life.
I keep staring at my unhappy face
Can’t I wait to have someone else?
Life is like a soil-made pot
It’s shaped in the way, what around me I’ve got
Let’s just break this eternal shape and get a new pot.
I've chose those to whom my presence is important
And keeping the habit, it’s time to make myself dominant.
Now, I don’t need to stand among the crowd of boys
It’s now the world where I have to build my existence
It’s not the time to sit and cry but to wake up and see the high
Keeping the same innocence, I want to wear the crown of importance
It’s time to turn their ignorance into the reason my success.