A Dark Forgiveness

When I was a little girl close to the sea

In the darkness shone sparkling sapphire lights

In my closet filled with fierce stuffed animals

On my bed one on each side perfect protectors

For there were two half-brothers 14 and 12

I was little and born into this half family

The older had an illness in the brain dark deadly

And with it, images arose in a fearsome mind

Strangers came into hallways voices whispering threats

There were images my parents refused to know

Chemistry cruelly evolved into a teenage mind

And at two you were unable to fight

The demons shouted and entered your mind too

Destroy the creature arriving in the night

Find a way to get mother’s attention to survive

For as the next three years evolved

A broken leg a deadly cup of baby aspirin

Doctors and nurses started to wonder

Such a nice couple they would think

And so your family moved and you grew stronger

A little girl learned from the Twilight Zone

Thriller and Chiller during the night

He was drawn to get rid of this noisy baby brat

Getting all the attention and cuddling

But as I grew older and smarter I learned

To keep away read books at the library

Spent dinners with friends babysit joined the Scouts

Years later after psychology, sociology, on and on

Became depressed but I was determined to live

Learned I was not alone and but could help

Sat with others and heard their pain

My brother was a danger to me as a child

But he had no one to help him and I hoped for him then

He grew older and worse rejected by his parents "no one is sick"

Finally in jail then in Alaska wild and exiled I hoped for him then.