I Wish I Could

I wish I could explain to the world:-

My unconventionally taken decisions,

The untrodden paths I wish to leave my imprints on,

The undying spirit in me which screams for validation... from within.

I wish I could explain to my family:-

My rationality in the seemingly irrational resolutions, 

The demon of Atelophobia creeping in, every now and then,

The risks which define, shape, and chisel my very existence...

I wish I could explain to my revered teacher:- 

My ocean of optimism which I derive from him,

The epitome of an ideal human that I look up in him,

The passion in me to make him proud and never let him down...

I wish I could explain to my friends:-

My passive need for peculiar possession,

The pulsating pillars in them, to support my fundamental foundation,

The shoulders which wouldn't shudder everytime I wanna cry upon them.

Most importantly, I wish I could explain to myself:-

My sense of purpose never getting lost in nothingness,

The drive in me to affect other people's life positively,

The incredible indecisiveness for which I hold no one accountable but...myself.

I know these things I'd never say out loud,

But also, 

I know I'd never become a part of this 'coward crowd'.

I have been born to achieve a purpose great in life,

To lead by example and to rise and shine;

To live a life extraordinary,

and age well just like the best red wine.