I really don't know what's it like being sober
Cause I hurt her.
I really don't know if I can be noble,
But I just wanna hold you.
It hurts to the core Knowing that this is goodbye.
I wonder if you hurt too.
I'm sick and tired of all the lies.
I don't know where to begin.
See I did a couple of things.
I'm not proud of.
A bunch of sins.
Whether I sink or swim.
The war with myself I swear I'll never win.
I let my devilish sensations take over.
I let myself go with them.
I regret it.
I wish I could forget it,
But instead, I'm stuck beating myself up about it.
I lost everything I ever wanted.
I swear I meant every word.
I still want to give you the world.
I told myself you'd be better without me
And maybe it's true.
I told myself I wasn't in love with you
And that was a lie too.
I forced myself to move on.
Deep down all I really want is you.
I tried to remind myself of the damage you gave.
When I shouldn't have because I forgave.
I let everything bad rise to the surface.
I'm spilling all this blood on the pages...
It wasn't really worth it.
I never meant to hurt you.
Even though I said it, but baby you don't get it.
I thought we were perfect.
I was just too afraid, to tell the truth.
I just knew that it would hurt too...
I'd go the extra miles to get to you.
I know it's a little too late,
But I'm hurting inside because of the way I left you
And maybe it wasn't fate.
No matter how much you push me away
I can't be mad at you cause you showed me how to be great.
I hope that I get to see how you will blossom
Because of you, I'm sprouting.
Learning more of how to love me altogether.
Even when some days are worst I keep trying,
But the pain is forever.
I could go on and on about how much I'm hurting,
But the main point is that I get my message across.
If you really want her, let her know.
Live in the moment.
Forget about the past.
Don't worry about the future.
Cause honestly shit never last.