Turn the Page, Turn the Life | A Writer’s Battle for Survival | Help Her Win
Turn the Page, Turn the Life | A Writer’s Battle for Survival | Help Her Win

The Apology

The Apology

2 mins

I really don't know what's it like being sober

Cause I hurt her.

I really don't know if I can be noble,

But I just wanna hold you.

It hurts to the core Knowing that this is goodbye.

I wonder if you hurt too.

I'm sick and tired of all the lies.

I don't know where to begin.

See I did a couple of things.

I'm not proud of.

A bunch of sins.

Whether I sink or swim.

The war with myself I swear I'll never win.

I let my devilish sensations take over.

I let myself go with them.

I regret it.

I wish I could forget it,

But instead, I'm stuck beating myself up about it.

I lost everything I ever wanted.

I swear I meant every word.

I still want to give you the world.

I told myself you'd be better without me

And maybe it's true.

I told myself I wasn't in love with you

And that was a lie too.

I forced myself to move on.

Deep down all I really want is you.

I tried to remind myself of the damage you gave.

When I shouldn't have because I forgave.

I let everything bad rise to the surface.

I'm spilling all this blood on the pages...

It wasn't really worth it.

I never meant to hurt you.

Even though I said it, but baby you don't get it. 

I thought we were perfect.

I was just too afraid, to tell the truth.

I just knew that it would hurt too...

I'd go the extra miles to get to you.

I know it's a little too late,

But I'm hurting inside because of the way I left you

And maybe it wasn't fate.

No matter how much you push me away

I can't be mad at you cause you showed me how to be great.

I hope that I get to see how you will blossom

Because of you, I'm sprouting.

Learning more of how to love me altogether.

Even when some days are worst I keep trying,

But the pain is forever.

I could go on and on about how much I'm hurting,

But the main point is that I get my message across.

If you really want her, let her know.

Live in the moment.

Forget about the past.

Don't worry about the future.

Cause honestly shit never last.

Rate this content
Log in

More english poem from Kinzy karim

Similar english poem from Abstract