When You Lose Your Peace, You Will Do Anything To Get It Back

It took me a long time to get to this space I am in now. For years, I didn't like myself, I hated my life, and I was unhappy. I've learned to take time out for myself to let go of the stuff I couldn't change and to find inner peace and joy.

Let me tell you, when you get to a place where you find that inner peace and something happens where your peace is disturbed, you feel it right away. There is an uneasiness that fills you, you start to worry about things. You feel off balance and unsettled just like how I used to feel in the past.

I don't ever want to go back to the days of darkness. Where I couldn't see the sun, where I couldn't find things to smile about and where I hated my life and myself. No, there will not be a return visit for me.

Each and every day I wake up, I choose to be happy. 

I choose to be grateful.

I choose to see the world through rose colored glasses.

This is a choice, my choice, and I choose to have peace in my life.

I have girlfriends that have drama in their lives, and it seems like every day, they want to drag me into their drama. I even wrote a blog about it recently called thriving on drama. I love you, but unless you choose to change, then you must like the situation you are in. I don't want to be involved in your drama.

Seriously, how many times do you need to go through the same stuff expecting different results? It's called insanity! It won't change because you are not doing anything to change it.

I chose not to hang out with negative people. They suck all life out of you. I had enough of that with my grandmother my whole life. I now want to surround myself with people who are positive, happy, and who love life, even with all the ups and downs.

Life is a chaotic. There are choices you make every day. You chose not to do drugs, to steal, to hurt people, to cheat. You choose to be miserable or not. These are choices you get to make every day. We live in the greatest country in the world, a country that allows you to choose. How great is that?

It took me so very long to get to a place of peacefulness. Every dark night, I cried myself to sleep. Every prayer, every time I cried to God for help was worth it as I have found a place in my life that is so incredible that even as a writer, I have no words to describe this feeling.

I remember when I was getting sucked into the drama that was my life for those few months years ago, I realized just how much I needed my peace. I felt I was swimming upstream against the current, fighting just to catch my breath, and really, who wants to live like that?

So today, my friends, I ask you, are you living like that? Is each day a struggle? Are you surrounded by negative people? Are you caught up in a drama-filled life? You need to choose. You need to step out and step up to a better life. This is your life, people, and you only get one trip. Why would you spend it worried, anxious, hateful, and miserable?

Isn't it better to feel peace and joy, gratefulness, forgiveness, and be with one with God and the universe? Or whatever you believe in.

Today is a new day, erase the past, start over, wake up, and choose to get your peace back.

“Be the change you want to see”.