The Place Before And After

I came to the same place after a long time today. I don't know why but something is wrong. Nothing has changed here but there is something definitely wrong. The sun is still shining with its bright yellow colour. The lush green colour of the grass is the same as it was. The stamping of the shoes of people hasn't reduced it's beauty. The continuous sounds of horns honking, people chatting, birds chirping makes me irritated these days. I am not able to get that pleasure of sitting here. That feeling of lying down on the fresh green grass of the lawn has died somewhere. Even the chicken of KFC tastes like that of poison. Gopalda's cha has lost its taste or maybe I cannot feel that same taste today. You know, last week the chicken tikka forced me to vomit even when I had not consumed it at all. The lemon tea doesn't taste the same now. The corridors of admin feel like bars of cell. Sounds of every royal Enfield starts some unusual reactions in my mind which goes beyond my control. I can't tolerate all these.

Today sitting at the same place and thinking about all these makes me realise that it's your absence that is making me feel as such. Since the last 6 months you have left me, I have tried to be normal. But unfortunately, I am not able to do so. The sight of couples sitting here makes me remember those days when you used to sit by my side with my head leaned on the shoulders of yours. I will never get the warmth of your hug ever. From now on your lips will never touch my lips again. You know why I am feeling such, just because you are not there with me, by my side.

I don't know how such accidents happen but the news that comes after them is actually heart-throbbing. The list did not have your name but I had no idea that you would come back as a dead body. You had promised to be with me forever but now I don't know whether to cry on your death, or be mad at you since you did not keep your promise. Wherever you are, you are not by the side of me but you are always with me. And, and, and I love you a lot.