Soulless

I have left that world behind. The chemistry, the physics the emotion were all perfect but not with one, everything seemed perfect with those two people. One made me, pulled me out from deep down of myself and the other one kept me together, holding me down whenever I collide and broke. I never said the thing, the important thing to anyone of them nor they did, from the start till the end. But you know the feeling of the first one, their faces, their touch the scent just buried in yourself, in your bones.

The second one, you chose carefully, even this much gently that they almost the shadow of first but all other things are different and you never wanted to fall, but they care for you and they never let you go away from them even though you are not together which makes you feel something, can't name the feeling but it is there.

You are waiting for the first one because they are the reason that you are you today, you both are not together and you promised to meet again when you will be ready but you never got the chance and in the middle someone else fell for you without your permission, without you knowing and you tried to catch them before they fell but you fell for them as well.

Then comes the time when your breathing stops, and you see the one, your first love again, looking at you and you act like strangers. You can't say a word although you are not bound with anyone you feel guilty because it is your mistake because you couldn't keep up with your promise. Your first love is with someone else just for showing the world that they are not alone, and neither are you and there is some constrained that the one who cares for you might get hurt and it is the truth that they always get hurt.

Facing the dilemma, the first love who is holding someone else hand just to make the world to live in a false sense and there is another one who is not with anyone but they are unaware of the word which they feel but you know it because of their action, both are waiting for you to say something.

Your words have the power to break your own heart if you stayed with another one or you will break the heart of the one who cares, who is standing beside you if your heart stays with the first. but you don't have any power, so you just rush it over on yourself because you don't have the power to break anything, you can't have them both, you can't lose any one of them because it will break you and you decide to say goodbye to all, and everything stays unbreakable except your soul which you feel, has left your body, this is my story and which left me soulless.