Rethink Yourself

I got a call today morning from one of my friends. She is actually like my younger sister who got married at a very young age to a Malayali but settled in Tamil Nadu. When she called me I was a little excited because after a long time we are sharing our feelings with each other.

"Hi, Prisci...how are you my girl???" asked her with a lot of excitement.

"I am fine sissy and what about you?? I heard someone is getting engaged sooner with their loved one" asked in a sweeter voice.

" Oh! How you known about it. I hadn't informed anyone and kept it as a top-secret but your outbreak. Tell me Prisci who is that spy?? " blushed for a moment and was keen to know the spy.

" That's not possible sissy how could I cheat my spy. You didn't remember me that's why you didn't tell me about the happy news. Do you how much happy I was. I waiting to watch your wedding and your crazy life. Now tell me about your wedding plans... Tell. Tell... Tell sissy"

" Ok ok I'll tell you but before that, you should open up to me about something. Will you??? "

"Yeah... Ask me sissyy " replied with a kind of fear in mind.

"Why there is no call no messages nothing from your side, a complete disappearance of you from everyone within a few days after marriage?? " asked her with a husky tone with intense emotion.

" Nothing sissy... I need to keep my word of a small challenge with my husband and it was fun and good too. Without the disturbance of anyone I and my husband enjoyed these 2 years very happily.... " spoken happy words but wailing in deep of her heart.

" Prisci...I could really feel your warmth of happiness from your words.

hey... When you had started lying to your sissy!!!! You're hiding something from us. Am I correct girl?? " anxiously saying to Prisci about her thoughts.

" Sissy......I am not having a happy life till now. I couldn't say that I am living a life even though we are living together for these 2 years. But I couldn't openly outburst it to my parents for giving me life at a very young age.

They are still believing I am living a happy life and asking me for a baby. What I suppose to answer them..... " crying while answering solely with pain at heart.

" Prisci..... Don't cry, baby. Do you know something you are the boldest person I saw in my life? Now where your boldness was gone!! Take a deep breath and stay calm for a minute.

Now Outburst yourself with me, clear your mind and share your sufferings with me. I can hear your heart...... "

" I am fine sissy.

Do you remember the day I started avoiding your calls, the very second day of my marriage? Born in a very poor family getting married at a very early age is a common thing in our society. Somehow I completed my ug that's the only benefit I got after marriage. Firstly he told me we can have a life only after I got settled and told me to complete my studies. I thought of him as a nice guy that was a trick to avoid me.

He wants to settle himself but why he isn't loving me. He didn't need a wife he needs a servant doing all the household duties looking at his parents caring for them all the time.

I am an unknown person, treating in a weird manner. While I am in the room he behaves like a roommate. According to his mood swings, he may talk or may not. When their parents are out he completely turns out to be another person, he sleeps in the next room. The thing is that, couldn't able to accept me as his wife then how can I love him without showing him a spoonful of love. He is good to my parents, brother, and everyone except me. One day I was totally outbroken I wailed like an insane, so I asked him the reason od his approach towards me. He told me that he can't live a life with me, he is loving someone for years. How can I tell everything to my daily waged parents whether they accept me if I reverted back? They think of me like debt and why should I make them cry for me. At least they will be happy to see their daughter living a happy life. "

" yeah baby doesn't cry.....why you didn't tell me earlier, you are too young dear. Are you planning to live with him till your death? He never treats you as his wife or doesn't even show any affection. Then why should you spoil your life, gently step out from his life, and had a mutual divorce? Education is been provided to all not only for getting good jobs dear, just think yourself. You can have a better life where you will be treated

like a friend, soulmate, wife, daughter, and mom. Rethink dear...Unravel your thoughts, please dear. We are unable to see your life, I will support you to build a better living.

Don't think too much, both can live in their own way without any suffocations."

" Sissy..... Your words made me rethink having a better life without being suffocated anymore. Definitely, I'll come out from this labyrinth, now I am financially independent with my job. I am so happy to hear your words and I feel it as a wake-up call.

I am coming back to live my life for my passions, for my dreams, for my desires, and for myself.

I can't die each second winced with pain. It's my life and I want to live it myself even though I can't satisfy anyone at least my soul " spoken with happiness overflowed like a river after an outburst.