Peace In Rain

Since I was young, I have always felt at peace in rain. Cold droplets caressing my arms and face, I try to relax one more time. Today is not a good day I concluded in my head still walking to my home. It's okay though to have a bad day I tried consoling myself. But nothing worked, trying to take deep breaths in hopes of loosening my muscles but still, they ached in bad feeling. Fastening my pace, my thoughts came to a halt thinking about him. the one who had drenched me in himself. And left me in cold, soaked in his thoughts. Trying to take my mind off of him, I saw another pair of shoes coming close to me.

 'Run' a whisper came out, whose voice I instantly recognized. It confirmed within me it was indeed a bad day today. I could feel a chill run down my spine. I wanted to run, scream but I was just there frozen, couldn't move an inch. gathering enough courage, I glanced up and saw a familiar set of stormy grey eyes staring back at me which still hold no emotions, a blank canvas I tried so hard to paint on, just to get myself ruined. Him still coming close I could feel his breath hitting my face now. My hands running cold I didn't know where I was feeling pain. Was it from my heart that got poisoned by his sweet nothings or from somewhere else? just to know that he wasn't the white canvas he claimed to be. Lost in his eyes I took control of my body again but I knew it was too late, I should have ran. I could feel tears gather in my tears begging to come down but I held them in. 

 Glancing down I could see a knife buried deep inside me, my hands trembling and coated with my own blood I screamed 'WHY' 'Why me' but I know it only came out as a whisper.

I could see the flashes of our happy moments together the joy, the laughter, the love we used to share a tear slid down my cheek as I remembered the pain, the nightmares, the fear it turned to. How stupid of me still thinking of a love that couldn't even protect me. 'You should have run when I said darling' he said in his husky voice, I could feel my inside churning and I don't know what that reaction was for 'But then again you weren't the one to listen' he finished wiping a tear which didn't stop coming.  

 I guess now I would feel peaceful under the rain thinking I just gave in to tiredness closing my eyes.