Out caste

10.00 PM, 11/04/2020

Hello Diary,

Other than you, no one is here, whom I can talk to. It was a simple day altogether. Attended a workshop conducted by Shalini Nambiar with many other school Principals. It was a good learning exercise and refreshing one. She stressed the need of well being of students. We talk about the same lesson, question-answer whereas it is very much required that we involve students during an online class and make it interactive. I started a few online courses from Amity University. In the evening I attended a live session with Sadguru. These spiritual masters are very costly, but due to COVID-19, they have reduced their fees. There are many sadgurus outside and there are few Gurughantals (So-called religious, spiritual, business head) who are inside (Jails) I also want to become a Sadguru, will have to look for someone who works for branding or image building. There are Tabligi among Muslims in India, Thanks to corona, it introduced to a lot of new concepts to me like Zamat, spit and spread hatred in the name of religion. But, what to do, this may be a branding or marketing strategies to promote your religion. I am undecided about what to become a religious leader, a caste spiritual leader, leader or regional forward-backward leader. The Head of Matha or the temple is also a good area to explore. Once you become a Sanyasi, as per our religious practice and believe you don't belong to any caste. If we leave this caste, caste will not leave us. People proudly say our Defense Minister, UP Chief minister and Chinmayanand all are Rajputs. There are temples run by various castes as God belongs so various castes. People are trying to find Hanumanji caste and trying to fit in their group. When there will be many job losses, I will start a movement of Kumar caste. People who use the title of Kumar can join my group by paying a nominal charge in the name of Bhiksha or Geeta Chanting same as Chinmaya Mission. Dear Diary, I am thinking all these satire due to the present situation or crisis and the people reacting on this occasion. All state govt, Chief minister, S.M.E, School owners, IAS officers everybody waiting for relief amount. This is their part-time crisis income not for paying relief to people but their own relief. Indians, Real citizens our own people have already started getting DBT to their account. Problem is with those people either illegal migrants staying in India or the high level official who have nexus with politicians, In this situation there i only hope from those who are ready for selfless service, want to work for our countrymen selflessly. I spoke to my uncle today. I didn't find it interesting to share with you. It was a painful experience. My cousin brothers are staying in Delhi. My uncle was not keeping well and due to that he has to go to Delhi. He was happy that he has reached to the village on the same complete lockdown that was announced by the honorable Prime Minister. Usually on return villagers (ladies, gents and children) use to visit us. He was very sad that people have not only started ignoring but troubling him. One of the neighbors has started over mike that nobody should go near to him. He may be a CORONA patient. He is not a patient but he has done only one mistake of visiting Delhi for treatment. He goes to Delhi as he gets free treatment on ESI card available with his son. This decease has taken something very important from us. He cannot go out as people declared him outcaste for the only reason of traveling to Delhi. Not only this, people from our colony have a complaint to Police and now police is also troubling him. He doesn't have sufficient ration for the coming days, no green vegetables. Yes, He has Jan Dhan and BPL card by he may get some amount but what about restriction imposed by our own people. His sons and daughter, grandson and granddaughter are in Delhi. Who will help him? I have heard that the local priest of my own community is also hiding somewhere otherwise I could have appealed to him.

Darling, I am upset that in this challenging time too, we are thinking of making money and not helping people. One important learning is that we are not for each other. Social distancing and protect self. It is good that we protect self but we need to take care if someone is hungry and sleeping without dinner and he has got water at his residence, otherwise my villager might not have given water and left him to die. I will speak to the Agriculture Minister, who is my childhood friend. He may or he may not take my call. He will not help me but he is soft-spoken and very humble over the phone, let us see. All these Dera, Religious mafias, So-called spiritual and religious organizations claiming service activities and collecting huge donations, this is the time to give back to these poor and hungry people!