My Fears Fall Into Tears

She was crying by putting her face on her pillow. "I hate everyone" and "I don't care about anything anymore" she screamed gently in her mouth.

Hey, listen! Don't you think you've changed? I mean you used to be much more fun-loving. What happened now? Don't you miss me?

The sudden voice hit her. She opened her eyes. The room was full of darkness but suddenly she saw a blue light beam in her room and it was her reflection in it. She looked at her slightly. She wiped her tears and tried to speak but now she didn't want to answer because she was a hell of tired of explaining herself. But the echo of that sound was tearing her soul apart. She screamed in anguish and said, "YES I have CHANGED FOR MY OWN PRECIOUS SELF" She took a sigh and burst into tears. "YES I AM CHANGED, AND I AM NOT A STUPID OR EMOTIONAL FOOL ANYMORE." She screamed and cried. Nothing new that salty waterfall was just like a true friend of hers. She wiped her tears and some drops of tears left on her hand. "Only these are my friends and oy these remain with me when everybody leaves me alone. You know what, why I've changed myself? She questioned in a shivering voice.

I changed myself when I've come to know that I will never be able to fulfill others' expectations at the cost of my self-denial. I just tried to make myself happy and for this I ignored myself. I changed myself when I have come to know that my realism is not worthful in the eyes of those for whom I was trying to burn down even my realism into ashes of nothingness. I changed myself when I've come to know that only my particular side is loved by those whom I loved wholly. I changed myself when I have come to know that I can't heal someone when I am bleeding from the inside. I changed myself when I came to know that I have only wasted my emotions and feelings on those people who were just like an illusion in life. Yes, you are right, I've changed and I do miss myself. I miss the ones associated with the old me that is still in my life but I am unable to find them in my little world of realism.

I admit that I was more fun-loving but you can't even imagine the peace I have in my life now. You can't imagine the fun I have in my life now because you only see a particular side of me. You can't see the real me enjoying my life because maybe the things that I love doing are the things that you don't even consider. You can't imagine anything about me because "YOU DON'T KNOW ME AT ALL". She screamed in a firm voice. Now I can do the things that I love. Now I am free from all fake relations. Now I can meet myself when I am in need of myself. I love the way I am right now because I am available for me myself whenever I need me. I am glad to have myself like this on the right track in my life which is a more loving and peaceful to me.

She was breathing heavily. Her body was shaking vigorously. She was waiting for that sound to respond to her. She opened her stiffly closed eyes steadily. There was nobody there! She started to shout loudly. "WHERE HAVE YOU GONE?" "HOW CAN YOU LEAVE UNANSWERED LIKE THIS?" She cried and stood up. She walked around in her room and came in front of the mirror. She saw her reflection in the mirror. "You always ignored me because of others," she saw her reflection talking to her. "You love others but you never loved me," "I am your soul and you tear me into many pieces," "Now how many pieces will you collect and add to repair your soul," She slowly come towards the mirror and touched it gently. "OUCH!!!" Her finger was bleeding. "You screamed only by one cut and scratch, think about me; your soul." Her reflection whispered gently. "Yes, I know I was wrong, I was unfair with you, I did hurt you a lot, I did injustice, but now I am changed. I have changed myself for you and for myself. Now I am only for you.

" She tried to touch her reflection but it disappeared. She felt a hand on her shoulder she turned around and saw a beautiful fairy in front of her. She wiped her tears and kissed her on her forehead. She gently spoke in her soothing voice, "Oh my child! There should be no more tears and no more fears in your life" You are brave now. This was what your life wanted from you and for you. Come with me, she holds her hand and lets her go in front of a mirror. This is you and your pure soul. There is no place for tears anymore. Live happily and she touched her eyes. She closed her eyes and now she was in peace. Aaahhh!!! She breathed with calm and opened her eyes. Everything was disappeared but now she was in peace, her heart and mind were relaxed. She stood up and tear all the papers she wrote for the people in her life. She took a rose flower in her hand and kissed it. "I will love like this rose flower, nobody can break me now." She took a diary and started writing on it happily and while writing she fell asleep in the deep valley of dreams.