Maybe If We Had A Story!

It had been four long years since I've seen you but even today many times in a day unknowingly I remember you and ask myself only one question maybe if we had a story.

Life is beyond very complicated as we think .we are surrounded by several tensions in our life such as parents having tension for their children's bright future, children having the tension of attaining good marks and earn laurels and make their parents proud, teachers are having the tension of providing best education to their students and this list just goes on. 

I was a messy, lazy, and careless guy but then she came into my life and changed everything. Her name was Ananya. She was the monitor of class with the perfect charismatic personality. Deep black eyes, long loose hair, and she's got that positive vibe about her. She was almost just like Taj Mahal as you can remain happy just by looking at it but can never make it yours 

She used to sit beside me in the class. At that time I was much an Innocent guy who didn't know what crush is what is the true meaning of love. She was a sorta chatterbox type of girl and for the whole day, I used to listen to what she said. She used to tell each and everything about her like how she was the pampered one at home and about his siblings that how they were closely related to me. 

Meanwhile, we have completed a fantastic year of friendship and our bond has grown stronger over time. I used to hang out and with her, I never felt with her like i was ever alone with her. But she was a hard shell to crack it was like she was having so many layers beneath her like earth's crust and just maybe i had unravelled her top layer and as the time passed i developed some feelings for her but fear of rejection and the fear of breaking our friendship always made me sad. I mean how can you not like the person with such a perfect personality. 

I discussed the whole scene with my cousin brother and he said that it's now or never. You have to take the chance to propose to her. So in my head there were 2 things going on whether i should tell her and risk our friendship and make everything null. Or whether should i keep these feelings to myself and get on a task to make her happy and adoring her each day. I found option b little better because it makes sense as it allows to be near you while actually not being near you. 

But as Shakespeare has said, "Fair is foul and foul is fair". Which means that everything is not as it seems because i thought i understood her but actually i didn't. On a fine sunday evening her boyfriend Manan came to my house and to me manan is a perfect definition of asshole and dickhead in one place. I didn't even knew she had a boyfriend and i definately knew that he wasn't right for her. He talked to any girl possible and i have never seen him giving the admiration and love that she deserved but it was her decision so i guess i should respect it and i moved on without actually moving on. 

I came to distant place and dated one woman who devastated me of course but i can't say that she was the first woman i loved. The first woman i loved was Ananya and she would always be. I know she sent her boyfriend to talk to me because she must have thought to take things easy on me by not confronting directly and i might have cried. After all i can't cry infront of her. What image do i portray and after all i would be happy if she is happy. 

It always felt like she deserved the happiness, she deserved love and lots of it and maybe the guy might not be a true asshole after all or maybe everything is in my head and if truly loved her and there'll be a piece of her in me always. 

So I'll consider this to be my forever closure," Whatever someone she becomes, wherever she is in this world. I am sending her Love. She is my friend till the end and "Maybe if we had a story" I would have loved you forever. "