it could have been better

This story is based on a true story ..

Some names and a bit of plots are changed..

Anyway read the whole story .. hope you will like it ..

I was totally drunk .. I took a blade and cut my hand .. Then blood were coming out from the cuts .. And suddenly he came into the room and took the blade from my hand and throw it away .. He was looking at me with so much empathy in his eyes .. And I was unable to say anything.. For a moment we kept the awkward silence.. Then I break silence and I told him how much I love Rohan .. And how important Rohan is to me .. He just kept listening .. Then he said " yes I know everything.. And few minutes ago you proved it .. "

Then my brother called him and while talking he left the room ..

I was so exhausted..

After half an hour the owner of the room came and said us to leave the room ..

It was 12:00 of the night ..

We packed our things and left the room .. I was so intoxicated so I was unable to walk perfectly so he hold my hands and we went to main road ..

We were waiting for my family members to come ..

Then a police saw us and asked why we are standing here at this late of night..

He told everything in short to the police ..

Then the officer said us to sit in the car ..

The police officer took me to the police station.. we talked.. after 1 hour my family members came .. my brother looked at me and I could feel how relieved he was feeling after he saw me .. then I came back home ............

You can't understand the story right ??

First lemme introduce myself..

I am Rusha Chowdhury..

I am a 16 year old girl ..

From the childhood I could fool everyone by my charms ..

So I had so many relationships..

I was always surrounded by boys..

They were wrapped around my little finger .. And after I got the attention of them I lose interest from them .. when I was 14 year old I met with a boy named Raja .. raja was a very cute boy and 18 years old .. For me .. he was tall and dark .. I fall for him because of his cute smile.. Then after a month we started dating.. but one of my cousin name Sanjay he came to know everything about it and told threatened me that he will say everything to my cousin sister Runiya .. Runiya was not only my cousin..she was my whole world to me .. Then Sanjay did what he have said .. Runiya said so many awful things to me and my father send me away.. And we broke up .. then a year later we started dating again and we planned to go on a date .. we go for a movie and for the first time we kissed and hugged each other .. this way everything was going great .. But one day he stopped texting me and I texted him so many times but I never got reply but still I Waited for him .. After a month I texted him in his mom's phone number then he he said his mom took his phone away and that day we officially broke up and said he have some kind of feeling for his best friend swastika .. And that day I cried like a fool .. Then a guy named Sashwata came into my life .. he was the sweetest person I have ever seen .. he had a gf but still my heart started to beat a bit more faster for him .. I loved him like a crazy .. Months passed buy .. Each and every time he made it clear to me we don't have any future.. so again my heart broke into million of pieces..

Then he came *Rohan* .. My universe Rohan .. he helped me to heal .. the closed door of my heart was again opened by him .. he entered into it silently.. Rohan and I was friends .. when I I was 15 he came into my life in the year 2021 .. Then we became friends in the Fb .. But later I came to know he is not what I thought.. He used fake picture of a insta influencer .. So I blocked him .. one night in the year 2022 I was listening a song suddenly some of his voice records came .. And my eyes filled with tears .. then i texted him but I got no reply so I called him and Sayed I want him back .. Then we started talking.. after a month later I told him I love him and we started dating.. it was a long distance relationship..

In one word Rohan was *perfect* .. Each and every I started to fell harder and harder.. I had to impress him daily .. we started to fight a lot but then I started to became mature .. if I ever get angry with him I didn't let him know that .. And I always tried to make him happy.. he also stated to being more amazing.. his eyes were normal lips was ordinary.. But still he was different and a amazing kind of person .. I could look at him and his smile the whole day and do nothing.. But God had planned something different for me .. Sanjay called me and Sayed raja told him everything happened between us .. And he showed some of my private pictures to his friends.. And I was feeling like the ground under feet are not there .. I was so helpless.. But I was unable to say anything to my brother or my friends .. Runiya is also my teacher.. My mom called her and said I had exam tomorrow so she Sayed to me you have mobile ok.. use your phone in something good not in some bad things .. And I knew I don't have any other option .. I have to attempt suicide or go somewhere.. where no one could find me .. so I took the second option.. Before going I texted Sashwata and Rohan that I love them .. And I am going away .. And always let them be happy .. Then I packed my bag and left my house .. after 2 days it was my 16th birthday I was crying while going I went to Howrah station.. them dhaniya Khali ..

And I met with a boy named Ganesh .. when I was tried to attend suicide he stopped me .. And took me with him .. And I stayed with him .. In the afternoon I called Rohan.. And then he said something awful things to me so I started to drink alcohol.. And I got drunk .. Back of my mind I was thinking if the boy take advantage of me .. so I make him out of the room and locked the door and vomit a lot .. because I ate nothing the whole day .. Then when I wake up Ganesh was knocking the door and I was saying " Rusha open the door or else I will break the door ".. so I opened the door and Rohan was in the call .. I said him to take me with him .. But he didn't.. And said to listen to him and go home .. I felt like crying.. I was totally drunk .. I took a blade and cut my hand .. And then you know the whole thing.. then I came home ..And after one day I texted him .. And I Said I love him and he also said he love me and that day it was my birthday so he wished me .. Then after that day he stopped texting me and started ignoring me .. then he said he was hurt by something I did so we are over.. After that night I cry every night and see his pictures for hours..

But he could have forgive me ..

It could have been better..

This way The story of Rusha and Rohan ended ..