I Wish

Its been two years that I have seen her, I thought that I won't be able to live without her but I guess I am at least breathing. I don't want to think about her, I don't want to feel what she made me feel everyday, I wanna smile too but those stupid rain showers reminds me of her, those huddles at the Momo's stalls makes me go back to those times where we have been together. Those maple leaves always remind me of all the dreams we wished to come true together. Those locks that we put on the famous love place, always reminds me of all the promised we did for each other. Those letters in the box of my cupboard which haven't been opened from 2 years shouting how you betrayed me.

I can't take it anymore, I can't keep up with the last promise I did to you, I can't come here anymore, I can't bring flowers to you anymore because Whenever I come here, I could feel those ropes around my neck, I feel choked. I always wonder standing here right in front of your grave stone if you have ever loved me, if you have ever trusted me, if you calling me your best friend was all a lie. I hate you!

but I also,

I wish, I wish you have told me with what all you have been gone through. I wish I could have been with you when you wanted me, I wish .....