I Am Happy

I remember when this song came out, at the time it was my favorite song, Happy. I used to sing it in the car, at home and at work. Because that is where I was and still am in my life.

I can't tell you how happy I am to be in this space. 

I can't explain the peace and joy I feel in my heart. I want to sing and dance.

(and I do, ask my friends!) Just because!

I am at the gym at 5:30 am and I am on the treadmill smiling and lip syncing.

No, I only punish my girls with my voice because they take after me and can't hold a note either.

I am grateful to be there even at 5:30, even while others might think I am nuts. I know that I have this overwhelming joy in me, and I can't help but show it!

But just as easily, you can lose your peace. I remember when I was in a relationship after my divorce, I thought I was happy. Maybe I was just happy to be cared for and run after. Maybe it was the thought of being a couple again. Whatever the reason, I knew that my peace was slowly being erased. For some reason, I was anxious and uneasy, and I lost my true joy that I worked so hard at getting.

I felt I was getting further and further away from God. Now let me tell you that this is your sign. This is your inner voice telling you that you are not one with God, the universe, or whatever you believe in. 

Listen to these voices. Be still and listen. They will tell you all you need to know. When I finally ended this relationship and I got past the hurt, betrayal, and anger, I decided this was not going to take over my life. I was not going to be this angry, bitter person like I have seen it happen to my grandmother or ex- mother in law and so I had to learn to let it go.

It was then my peace returned. Wow, pretty amazing, huh? Yeah, I thought so, too! Once I let it go, I was happy with myself. I found myself back in my peaceful place again. See once I liked myself again. No... When I learned to love myself, I got in a good space. I realized that I have two wonderful daughters who love me and am proud of me. I have a business I love, and I have incredible friends and family. I struggled to finally own a home, I have great interests and hobbies, and I have the most unbelievable church and church family. I now know that I am the child of the most high God, and this is enough for me.

I am grateful each and every day for all my blessings, and I am even grateful for what has happened to me in my past as it gives me more motivation and testimony to empower other women.

I can't tell you how good God is, as he also gave me many speaking engagements on this subject. This was my test for my testimony.

I know that my purpose is to inspire others, to give hope, and to help others keep the faith. Even when you're in the darkest places, trust and believe that it will get better. It will be so much better than you've ever dreamed of. 

So today, my friends, remember that if you protect your peace, you too will be smiling all day, you will be grateful for every breath you take, and you will walk around singing.

 "I don't care by the way because I'm happy, clap along if happiness is for you. I should probably warn you I will be just fine, no offense to you, don't waste my time, because I'm happy, 

can't nothing bring me down!

Because I'm happy, clap along because happiness is the truth!"

Now I know you're all singing this song. Have a wonderful Monday, and be happy!!