An Unexpected wish

A number of events happening on earth like children dancing in school, family and friends celebrating birthdays, players celebrating victory, parents feeling blessed after seeing for the first time the face of a child, and all these scenarios running on the big screen not elsewhere but on god's world where a little shiny star like souls watching this with god. This whole world is full of these star-like souls and with their shining bright light the whole world is lightened up , the floor is made of clouds , the sky is just like ours but too clear and pure . God is sitting on his chair calm and all those other souls wandering in void since eternity while one soul sitting next to God can't talk and see the humans on screen, he asked God through thoughts .

Soul: who are these? 

God : These are just like you and they are all my creations.

• Soul gets curious to understand more and God expects that.

Soul: how are we all the same?

God answered with a smile: You both are my creations.

Soul: Who do you create first ?

God: You, I created you first.

• Soul got so happy and his brightness increased and he said:

Soul : what is the difference b/w us and them ?

God answered gently: That will be too much for you to understand like I made their world too small than yours, they could die but you don't.

• Soul got confused and asked God calmy: 

Soul : what is the meaning of die?

God : It's like their time spent on that world gets over.

Soul : Oh I get that and where they go after that world.

God : I take them here and then they spend their time among you but they can't discuss things with others.

Soul : May I ask why?

God : I forbid them.

Soul is innocent and can't sense the mystery God is playing. The soul is too pure to understand anything more than happiness and curiosity.

Only God knows the truth but can't answer all because God knows something is left to be as he creates through time.

Now Soul sees the screen and sees the diversity of life from small scale to big like seeing plants growing and getting eaten by other living beings and Soul gets again confused and asks God:

Soul : what is happening there?

God : This life goes on in that world. Don't you wonder why the plant is still growing and what is worth growing  if you can't move or can't do anything. 

Soul : I don't understand.

God : The aim of life-form in that world is just to grow and keep growing no matter how their journey is. Like that plant can't move but it can feel the very part of earth and hold the beauty of its surroundings like when beautiful flowers grow on them and when it becomes older it provides fruits to other life-forms and helps them to grow.

• Soul can't argue but seeing the diversity of life and his curiosity increasing and wish to be part of them and asks God:

Soul : If you created us first then why didn't you give us that freedom like them .

God gently answers: I created so many other worlds too and no one could experience all of them. All hold different experiences and have their own diversity.

God : I created this in the first place because all other life-forms came to rest on the day from their journey.

Soul gets surprised and asked:

Soul: Why are you showing us only earth's life then?

God gently answers: It's the best life anyone could live, I filled so many wonderful things for them.

Now soul get more curious about this life and sees how beautifully human can explore things in different ways and how is to feel like living with other living beings his curiosity rises by seeing the different experiences of a different life and he asks God:

Soul : Now I understand all things and I wish to be part of this .

God calmly asked : Why? This world is a holy world and is purer than anything.

Soul : Yes, I know and I also know this world never ends and we are all happy for being here but I just wish I could  feel to be alive and how is to be experiencing those limited wonders in the little creations of yours.

• God expects this and smile and soul said:

Soul : I wish I could go there and when my time comes, I will return here just as the way you decide.

God : You are my child and I will do as you wish.

Soul : Which world will I go to?

God : Haven't you decided?

Soul : I wish I could go to earth and you said that human life isn't limited to exploration.

God : Look like you decided.

Soul gets excited and seems so happy and starts imagining that he will become that being and will explore so many wonderful things.

God : I decided and I'm giving you the most beautiful life a "Human life"

• Now soul get so happy and bouncing like a child and so excited to go and asked God in excitement

Soul : when will I go?

God warns him: Soon but remember When I send you there you forget everything you know and through your journey, you have to find those wishes you want to live as a human on your own, things you are curious about will get erased and your exploration goal is to find those desires and to live them.

God : You can go now 

God sent him

Soul enters the infant in the womb and starts moving and can feel alive. The mystery God is playing with only he knows that he didn't tell him about other things human experience like sadness, misery and kept soul in the belief that he only experiences good things in life. An innocent soul's curiosity took him from one world to another with hidden truth and yet to discover through his eyes.

In this world, he spent his childhood with love and care from lovely parents. He is little and innocent and unknown to reality. Most of the time his parents took care of everything like everyone else. They gave him only happiness and tried so hard to make a better future for him. In this period, he could not experience things himself.

He had a very lovely childhood.

Now he has become teen and done many things he could without any second thought and made many memories. He just started to see the world through his eyes but it is still so difficult for him to understand reality. He lives with his parents but he hasn't the courage to speak with them by sharing feelings. He sees his friends sharing thoughts about their interests and he didn't know about his interests. He starts to think about what world is filled and he wants to explore. And he came to know that it requires time and money to start any journey and he tried to ask his parents but they denied his desires by convincing him it is not an easy thing.

When he became independent to do things on his own, he discovered that all his childhood was a lie. This world is not full of happiness but with sadness and misery, scary and the worst place to live. When he sees his parents getting old then he cares about them even more and he knows that no-one's there for them except him.

He thinks more and becomes more responsible and denies his desires most of the time with little happiness. This only leads him to depression and can't easily sort things out in most situations. He felt he was in a room full of people and still felt alone. Throughout time when he started making money , he was still unknown to his curiosity and didn't explore things. He decides that the best way to live is to settle for less and compromise with life and accept things the way they are and he spends his life with this thought. He tried to end his life but can't he felt he didn't see the world enough through eyes. This thought made him live on. When he becomes old and his family isn't with him anymore. He experienced the world in another way and has quite a wisdom that all his life was full of memories made of happiness, sadness, crying and fear makes it full and could be different if he took a different perspective to see things in favour and something might get changed if he didn't worry too much. He now has his own family but something is still missing and he spent his whole life finding that feeling. He realizes that life might not be that way he imagined, it didn't give him those things he wished for since childhood. While thinking about this, his past just flashes in his mind and he stops regretting it. He came to sense that every moment he lived has its own meaning and impact in his life and if life would have been so easy he wouldn't know the worth of things he has right now. He sees his family and seeing them happy gives him inner peace and he couldn't feel any more blessed and he gives up his hope to explore his life.

Now after some years, when he died he kept all his memories with himself (By God's will) and when he became a little shiny star again, he goes to ask something to God, and when he stops in front of God and says:

Soul : Did I wish for something wrong?

God : No , you didn't.

Soul : You told me that I will explore things in this life but I didn't. I just suffer there most of the time. 

God : You want to explore this life and I gave you a chance to be part of it but you made your choices how to experience those.

Soul : what I was supposed to do that time ?

God : Nothing less, it doesn't matter what you are supposed to do or not, that life was not destined for eternity. It is destined just to be alive better than any living being on that world. Like other lives I created, human life is the most complete way to explore that world. No other being can feel the diversity and perspective to experience so many things as humans.

• God shows him the same big screen and runs his whole life pictures in front of him.

God : I created that life and opportunity for you and it depends on you what choices you prefer to live with.

• Soul realizes his mistake

God : Your life was full of every emotion like sharing time with family in peace, partying with your friends, winning a match for a team, seeing your first child, and also those times when you did things you don't even want to do intentionally and made you feel sad, losing best things and you cry, the things you don't know how to start without fear. These little things make one big life experience of your journey and the only thing you can do is to live every part of it because the time in that world is limited and unexpected.

• Soul realizes that the meaning of being alive is to live everything he could experience and he asks God.

Soul : If I could feel every emotion in that life, why didn't you tell me this before? 

God : I created you this way , you are only familiar with happiness because in this world you have no reason to worry about anything. If I told you about other things related to human life you still wouldn't understand because you can't feel a thing.

Soul : May I ask why?

God : I am the creator and I love all my creations and I won't be cruel to any of my creations by sending you without your will to any world just to run a living cycle . 

• Soul seeing that God didn't betray him

God : I hid the truth for good. Your curiosity led you there and If I told you and made you like you sense other things, you won't agree to go in that world and life would stop there.

• Now the soul can feel different things , he was shocked to know that God played with him.

Soul : Did other souls get the same fate?

God : No, each soul experiences something different than another , some experiences worse than you and some good at the same time in the same world. 

• Soul never thinks about all he did and starts regretting

Soul : I am sorry , I wasted the whole life just to worry about those delusions which were temporary and also caused by my choices and I could experience that time better if I just focused on living those moments I missed and that was my life experience you sent me to live.

God : You now understand fully. It's not upon you to do things perfectly, I sent you to be part of being alive and to experience things as much as you can because this life is best of all and comes in one time after long eternity to live.

 

• Soul gets sad and can't do anything to change that

God : Don't worry, next time you get a chance to live that life again.

• God smiles and says just remember to live every part of it.

Soul : what is about my memories of that world? You told me before that no soul can share thoughts with each other.

God : You will keep them with yourself just like every other soul but you can't share them.

Soul : Yes, I know and can you erase them ? 

• God doesn't seem sure about that and little surprised to see that behaviour

God : Yes, I can but you can keep them if you want. These memories might get difficult to deal with.

Soul knows what God is trying to say and he knows that his regret and his mistakes also stays with him and disturbs him .

After thinking for while and he decided

Soul : Yes, I want them. I want to remember that time I lived one of the best lives and that was really beautiful and I will wait an eternity to become human again.

God tells him to stop and ask

God : Don't wanna tell me what you missed there.

Soul : When I was there, I remember I wanted to be an astronaut, and I was so curious to see the outside world. From here, I can see beyond everything but from there it felt so special to see the world from our limits.

God understood that human life had some special impact on him and wonders that he will never be the same happy soul so he should erase his memory.

Soul suddenly ask

Soul : I know you already fulfilled my wish , but I request you please let me be human again for sometime so I could be an astronaut or somebody to experience the world outside earth.

God : I can't do that as simple as you think. You had the opportunity and you lived a good life, you shouldn't complain.

Soul : Yes, but you erased my memory. How could I remember everything I want to do? From here I thought that I would experience the Beauty of that world, but it looks like my wish didn't come true.

• God sensed the frustrating feeling in him and liked how much human he become and smiled and said:

God : You changed and I don't know you came here as a soul or human? I create many life forms but only humans know how to complain.

Soul : I am not complaining, I am just not happy that I wasted my chance and can't change anything.

God : Wait , where do you get that you can't change anything? Is this thought you get from the human world?

• Soul seems confused and just didn't say anything

God: I decided to wash your memories, so you could be the same as you were.

Soul : I think you are right, I don't want to feel anything but happiness. I am ready.

• God felt pity for the soul and now it's time to make soup happy again.

God blink eyes and soul does the same and then the soul opens his eyes and sees the void is changed and finds himself in space and can see the sun closely now. He didn't understand what just happened so he asked:

Soul : what is this?

God : You said you want to see the world outside earth so here you are.

• Soul gets excited and sees in eyes of God

God with a smile : This world has no limit so you can explore as much as you want. Human life has limitations but this form hasn't so you can explore everything.

• Soul gets so happy and also confused and says,

Soul : I don't get it. This was my human desire and you said you will erase my memory, but you are still giving me that joy I don't understand.

God : Yes, I will erase your memories definitely but it's also my duty to make sure that there is a point when I can't judge any of my creations from their life experience. I am seeing you as the same child as you were before your journey and I decide to give you the  joy you craved even after dying you still hold on to your wish.

Soul now understands that God holds Everything and he chased for his desires in his whole life but even after dying his desires didn't leave him. Now  He sees the space from every side and finds how empty and infinite it is at the same time and finds how peaceful this is. Now he understands since the beginning of human life he has sought for peace not for desires , his desires and wishes only make him go through his journey. Soul sees, his whole life he wants to go beyond that world (earth) but why ? Because he didn't find peace there but not only on earth, no other world would give him peace. He thinks God is ready to grant his wish but after that what he will seek? 

• He turns towards God and says :

Soul : I don't want to go , I want you to erase my memory and take me where I was before. I see through my whole journey all I want my desires to become true but now I know the thing I actually want which your life couldn't give me.

• God smiled and Knew what the soul is going to say:

Soul : All I need is inner - peace. And if you can't have it then what is the meaning of dying?

God : It took you your whole life to understand the simplest thing.

Soul with smile : How would I get it , you made me a human , the stupidest being But I know after talking to you and I think since the beginning of human life , This thing was still within me but my desires took over. I  probably should have looked the other way so the whole journey could have been difficult but peaceful.