Ajay Part 7 Punish Or Gift?

I woke up with a startle. I shot up and hit my head on the top of the cage. I yelped, rubbing my head where I hit it. I must have cried myself to sleep. I looked around, the room was still dark. I had no idea what time it was or how long I was left in here. I remembered the day and everything that happened at the park, the thought sent shivers down my body. The humiliation rushed through my system. My mouth was so dry, I hadn't had anything to drink since the morning bottle Shalini gave me. I did remember she left some water in that little bowl on the ground. I went to crawl over but realized my hands were tied behind my back. When did she do this, I thought. Why did she do this. I crawled over to the bowl and then it hit me. She didn't want me to scoop the water out into my mouth. She wanted me to bend over and drink from the bowl like a little puppy dog. 

The humiliation continued, I had to make a choice here. To either drink like an animal or go thirsty. But I was so so thirsty. My throat was so dry it was starting to hurt. I decided to put my ego and pride aside and just go for it. I bent over and slurped the water from the bowl like a puppy. I slurped and slurped until there was none left. I sat back satisfied, my throat feeling better. I also realized two things then: 1. I was hungry and 2. I had to poop. I didn't take a poop since Friday morning and it was atleast evening time Saturday I would guess. I sat there contemplating what to do. Shalini made me pee my pants this morning. That was probably the new normal for me now, but is she expecting the same thing with poop. I couldn't, I just couldn't do that to myself. 

I sat there for maybe an hour, controlling my hunger and my bowels when I heard stirring from outside the door. The lock was opened and Shalini opened the door and turned on the light. She really looked stunning. She was dressed in a very tomboy attire, just a sweatshirt and sweats, her white gym socks pulled over her Grey sweats. She had her hair down, flowing and silky and left her makeup on from the morning. Even in this baggy attire though, her body looked amazing. Her curves were perfect for her 5'8 height and she carried her strong figure with such confidence. 

She saw that I was awake and clapped her hands together in excitement. "Looks like my little Ajay baby is awake from his nappy nap" she cooed happily. This made me feel better. I missed seeing her happy and playful with me. This whole morning, I saw a side of her that I didn't like, that scared me. She was so dominant and put me in such humiliating situations. She walked over to the cage and looked down at me. "Did my baby learn his lesson?" She asked watching me. "Yes I did mama" I said in shame with my head down. "What did my baby learn today?" She asked. "That you are in charge and I should never disobey your orders. That I should do whatever you say" I responded. "That's right. Because you are just mama's little baby right" I nodded. "Just mommy's little play thing, her pet." I nodded again. "That's a good boy Ajay" she cooed. 

"My baby must be hungry huh" she said. I nodded, "Yes mama, I'm hungry" I said. "Okay, be right back munchkin." She left the room and came back 5 minutes later with a bowl in her hand. She went over and grabbed one of the bowls that was on the floor and filled it with rice. She put some kind of Curry on top and mixed it all together with a spoon. She then brought it over to the cage. She opened the door, thinking she was going to let me out, I started crawling towards it, but instead she pushed the bowl inside the cage and locked the door again. 

"Not yet, baby. Eat up first and then we'll see if you're ready to come out. I really wanted out but I was equally hungry. But my hands were still tied behind my back. "Umm mama," I started. "What is it baby" she cooed standing infront of me with her hands crossed. "Uhmm my hands" I said showing her I couldn't use them. "Yeahh, you won't need them," she said smirking. Puppies don't use hands" she said grinning. I was even more ashamed now. I was going to have to eat like a dog, bending over eating right out of the bowl like how I drank the water. It was different now though with Shalini there watching. I didn't want to do it infront of her. "She saw my hesitation and gave the cage a kick to get my attention. "Eat, now" she ordered in a commanding voice. I immediately started going at the foor with just my mouth. I looked up and she was smiling from Eat to ear, satisfied with what she made me do.

I continued until I ate it all. I was so hungry. "Wow, my baby had such a big appetite today huh. Is his little belly full now" she asked playfully. I nodded yes. "Good little boy" she said crouching down to my level. She reached her finger through the cage bars and tickled my neck with it making me squirm. "Mama's gonna go clean up a bit outside and she'll be right back. You stay put in there." She giggled as she walked out. I sat in waiting for her. 

Suddenly, my stomach started feeling worse. It started gurgling and I started feeling heavy cramps in the bottom of my stomach. I really had to use the bathroom now. It was starting to get unbearable. I couldn't handle the pain any longer, I called out to Shalini, "Mommy, mommy!!" I yelled now lying on the floor, squeezing my butt cheeks together. I heard her foot steps and saw her socked feet walk through the door. "Whats wrong baby" she said as she walked in. "I really need to go to the bathroom" I said pitifully. "Well you already used your diapee to go pee pee. Just do it again" she said giggling. "It's not pee pee" I said softly. "I need to go poo" I said like a little child. "Ohhh nooo" she said mockingly. "My medicine is already working eh" she said giggling. I looked at her shocked, what was she talking about. "Sorry baby, but I might have slipped a couple spoons of laxatives in your food. I noticed you hadn't gone poo in almost 2 days, so I thought I'd help you out" she said smirking. I looked at her with tears in my eyes. Why was she doing this to me. "Now baby, you are in a diaper. Don't hold all that in forever. Just let it go baby. Let it all go. Poop your pants for mama" She cooed at me. I was crying now in pain and humiliation. I couldn't do it, but I was so close to. I felt some starting to squeeze out and I just let it go.

It felt disgusting but also so satisfying. I was realizing what I was doing as I was doing it and I just started crying my eyes out. I heard Shalini, cooing at me, saying sweet words to encourage me. I letnit all out and felt a huge mess in my diaper. I couldn't believe what I just did. Shalini could smell what happened and she looked absolutely thrilled at what she just made me do. "Looks like baby made a poopie, didn't he" she exclaimed. "Mama's big 19 year old boy just went poppies in his diapee" she continued to tease. I held my head down in shame crying away. "Oh poor baby" she said as she started to walk out of the room. "Wait, but my diaper" I called out in tears. "Oh what about it?" She asked like she had no idea. "I need to, I need....uhhh" I started. "What is it baby, mommy needs you to tell her what you want" she was enjoying this. She wanted me to ask for it. I put aside the embarrassment and just asked. "What about my diaper. Can you change my diaper please?" I asked her. She grinned from ear to ear, "Oh you want mama to change your diaper?" She repeated to which I nodded. "Maybe later" she shrugged off and walked out of the room, shutting the door behind her. I was left sitting in my own poop. I just cried in shame. 

About an hour later, Shalini came back. I was still sitting there, tears all dried up. She came up to the cage and unlocked the door. "Come out baby, it's time now" she exclaimed. I crawled out of the cage and as I crawled out, she grabbed a hold of the leash that was still around my neck. "Let's get you outta here" she said and led the way, walking me out of the room and I to my playroom. She let go of the leash and ordered me to sit infront of her. She stood towering over me with her arms crossed. "Now let's get this straight, I'm your mama but I'm not changing poopie diapers. This was me showing you what I'm capable of making you doing. I can make you pee your pants, poop your pants, anything I want. You can change your own diaper and clean yourself off" she said and threw a diaper to me. "Clean yourself, get that new diaper on you tight and come out" she said. She then walked over to me and took my leash off. "What do you say baby" she asked. " Thank you mama" I responded. She ruffled my hair and left me to it. 

I crawled to the bathroom and took my diaper off. What a mess. I cleaned myself and worked really hard to put the diaper back on me. It was much looser than it was when Shalini put it on me. I crawled myself out of the room. I saw Shalini sitting on the couch reading a magazine. I crawled to her. She saw me and just giggled. "Oh baby, what did you do" she asked amused. "I really tried mama but I couldn't get it tight, I tried my best" I pleaded not wanting a punishment. "Oh baby, I know you did. Come here munchkin" she said as she leaned forward and picked me up off the ground by the armpits and placed me facing her on her lap straddling her front. She put her legs together and pushed me back to lay against her thighs. She then loosened off my diaper and fixed it, making it much more tighter. "There we go, now my munchkins diaper is all fit and snug" she sang, blowing kisses onto my belly making me giggle. "There's that cute adorable smile I missed" she said bringing me back up and hugging me against her body. I clung onto her, missing this intimacy. I laid my head on her shoulder as she gently rocked me in her arms. She held me there for almost 10 mins gently rocking me and humming in my ear. 

I lay there in my mama's arms wondering how many more firsts I was going to have to go through. She made me eat out of a dog bowl and poop my diaper. Was this going to be my new norm. I was so confused. I think Shalini sensed my confusion. She pulled my head out from her body and looked into my eyes. "Everything OK babym" she asked. "Uhmm I'm just a little confused" I responded timidly not sure what reaction I was going to get from anything I said. "Confused about what munchkin?" She asked sweetly, readjusting me in her lap so I was partially sitting up now but still wrapped up in her arms.

I was nervous talking to her, especially with her looking right at me and being held by her so tight. In a position where she could easily do anything to me. I think she sensed that too, she had the slightest grin on her face, almost like she liked the feeling, liked the control and fear she had. "I uhmmm, I was...I was just a little confused on my uhhh role here and my umm expectations. I don't mean to sound ungrateful or pushy, but I just ummm wanted to know if I should be expecting to sleep in the cage from now on and eat out of the bowls and use the bathroom in the diaper" I asked her, so nervous my voice was cracking all the way through. She looked back at me with almost a look of pity. She squeezed me a little tighter in her arms. "I'm sorry baby, I should have been clearer with my instructions, that's my fault. You have every right to know what your expectations are." She re-adjusted me again so I was back to being cradled tight to her body.

"So baby" she started as she rocked me in her arms and patted my diapered butt. "You are mommy's little baby. So you will be in a diaper at all times. And mommy expects you to use your diaper at all times. You will not be allowed to use the bathroom for those purposes. Mommy will always change her munchkins diaper it's full from pee pee, but mama will not change your poo poo diapers. When you go poo poo, let mama know and she will decide when to give you a new diaper for you to change into. And don't worry baby, you come find me if your diapers loose and mama will fix it for you" she said sweetly running her hand through my hair.

The way she was holding me and talking to me was warming my heart back up. I started to feel happy again. Mama wasn't mad at me anymore, she was talking sweetly to me like she did the first day I came over. I felt happy that she was happy with me. I snuggled myself tighter to her. I wanted to be in her embrace, in her arms and I wanted her to be happy with me. I didn't want to disappoint her. 

She continued with her instructions. "I expect you to only crawl when you're inside this household. If you need to get anything that's out of reach with you crawling, you call mama. Outside of this house, mama will tell you if she wants you to crawl or walk, understood?" She asked. "Yes mommy" I responded. "Good baby" she said pinching my cheek. "And you'll be sleeping your crib baby. The cage and the dog bowls are only when you misbehave or disobey mama, or...when mama wants to have a little fun" she said with a smirk. I chose to just ignore that and deal with it when it comes up. "Other than that, anything mama says, you do. No questions. If she puts you in a car seat you sit there with no fuss, if she puts you in a stroller, you sit there with no fuss, if she bottle feeds you in the park, you dri k with no fuss, understood?" "Yes mama" I responded. "That's my baby" she cooed hugging me tightly to her body and rocking me back and forth. I just laid into her body, enjoying the intimacy we were sharing. Enjoying the closeness and comfort I felt in her strong arms. We sat like that for a while, her resting her head against mine, slowly humming into my ear. I saw her arm reach over me to the side table and pick up a bottle that was sitting on it. She brought it close to my lips and without any direction, I latched onto to it. It was milk, I just began sucking on the nipple of the bottle while she held it to my mouth. I emptied the bottle in record time. "Wow, that was so fast munchkin. You must have really been hungry huh" she cooed at me. I nodded with a big smile on my face. "Was that yummy baba, did my baby like his baba?" She said in her babyish tone. I again nodded, "Yes mama I loved it" I squealed. She sat me up and lifted me back into her arms. She held me with her hands clasped around my but while I wrapped my arms around her neck and let my legs dangle. She slowly started to rock me back and forth in her arms while patting my back. After a few minutes I let out a loud couple of burps. 

She then clasped her hands together again under my butt and gave me a little bounce to get my attention. I lifted my head off her shoulder and looked at her with my hands still wrapped around her neck. "You've had a rough couple days haven't you my munchkin?" Shalini asked kindly. I didn't answer her, I just looked away, but she brought my head back to look at her with her finger. "I know it's been hard baby. I know I had to get strict with you a few times and punish you. I saw how much it hurt you honey, it hurt me too watching you so sad." I started tearing up listening to Shalini, it reminded me of everything I went through, but her words were comforting me in ways I couldn't explain. To hear remorse from her and feel that compassion from her was warming my heart. I felt so much joy that she cared for me still. She took one of her fingers and wiped my tears away. "My goal is to never make you sad baby. I just wanted you to learn the rules and follow them. Mama loves you baby, I just want you to be good and follow orders. I don't want to see you sad and cry all the time. I want you to have that cute gorgeous smile on your face all the time" she said giving my neck a little nuzzle with her mouth making me giggle. "I want you to enjoy being here, this is your home, I'm your family. I want you to love this place, okay?" I nodded, my heart full of joy. I sunk my body into hers, wrapped my legs as hard as I could around her hip. She brought her hand up to my head to hold it into her body. "I love you mama" I said so happily. "I love you too my pumpkin" she said warmly. 

She carried me back to the couch and readjusted me into a cradle before sitting down with me in her lap. She again cradled me like a baby and looked down at me. She smiled at me sweetly and gently started brushing my hair with her hand. "You've been so strong for mama" She cooed. I smiled at her. "Mama wants to give you a present for being so strong" she whispered. She cradled me tighter to her body so I was now leaning on my side facing her. She cradled my body higher raising my head so it was leaning against her chest. I didn't notice before but I noticed then the size of her boobs. As she leaned my head against her breast, it felt like a pillow. It was plush and big. She slowly moved her chest, letting it rub slightly against my face. In a sultry voice, she whispered again, "Do you want it baby?" I was mesmerized, lost in the moment. My body was aching, my insides were yearning. I've felt attraction to girls before. Girls have never felt that mutually towards me. I've always just had to relieve myself since I started feeling this way. But I've never felt like this. I've never felt my feelings this deep. Being in Shalini's arms, completely engulfed by her body, being rocked and held and dominated to such a degree by this beautiful Goddess that makes me call her mommy, being this close to her breasts, it was overwhelming my system. I nodded my head, yes to her question. "Tell me baby" Shalini said, "tell mommy you want her boob."

I licked my lips, my mouth dry and my heart racing. I've felt so many different feelings over the last few days with Shalini, but this was different. This was pleasure in ways I couldn't explain. "Yes mama, I want your boob please" I said in almost a pleading voice. "Okay baby, you deserve it my little munchkin" she whispered and slowly reached down to lift up her shirt. She wasn't wearing a bra, he uncovered boob was right there and my emotions were going haywire. My body tingled, I trembled from passion. She slowly took my head with her hand and gently pushed towards her bare breast. "Take it baby, latch on sweety" she whispered gently. I did, I latched onto her nipple and started sucking. I heard Shalini moan from over top and felt her lower her shirt back down, covering me while I sucked on underneath. I felt her hand gently play with my head, I felt her other hand slowly pat my butt. She was rocking me on her lap while I sucked and sucked on her nipple.

"That's my baby, keep going my little prince. Your almost there" Shalini edged me on. And then I felt a little squirt into my mouth and heard Shalini moan. "Keep going, keep going" she moaned out. I did and suddenly my mouth was filled was liquid. I was drinking from her breast. I was being breastfed!! But it excited me, in ways I couldn't describe, I never felt such passion through my body. I sucked and sucked and drank the milk until I couldn't get any more. I unlatched from her breast but she instantly picked me up and readjusted me so I was cradled on the other side, my head against her other breast. She immediately pulled her shirt up and I knew the drill. I latched on right away. I was able to get milk coming a lot sooner on this side. I sucked and drank and heard Shalini moaning over top. Eventually that was done too.

I unlatched and poked my head from beneath her shirt. Shalini was leaned back in the couch with her eyes closed, clearly in a trance herself. She looked down and saw me looking and smiled. She pulled me tight to her body and gave me a bunch of kisses all over my face. "That's mama's baby. Good job my little prince" she exclaimed excited. I was equally thrilled, my body just went through pure excitement. I just cuddled myself closer to mama and dug ny head into her sweatshirt. "Do you wanna do something for mama now baby" i heard Shalini ask. I nodded my head vigorously. "Yes mama, anything you need" i replied. "Oh my cutie" Shalini said giving my face a big squeeze with her hand. 

She lifted me off her lap and placed me on the floor with my back against the couch sitting right inbetween her legs. Her feet were both on the ground, on either side of me. My eyes immediately went to her feet, which were flat on the floor. I took in the size of her foot, easily twice the size of my own. Everytime I focus on her feet, her socked feet, my body feels different, my insides quiver. It excites me. Shalini then lifted both her feet up and placed them in my lap. "Give mama's feet a massage will you baby?" Shalini asked. I didn't need to be told twice, I immediately grabbed onto one of her feet and as soon as I felt the touch of her gym socks, my excitement went haywire. 

I started massaging her feet while staring right at them. I squeezed her heel and dug my fingers into the ridge of her foot. I massaged each of her toes. I massaged all over making sure I covered her entire foot and making sure I touched as much of her sock as I could, from her toes all the way up to her mid calf area, as she had her white gym socks pulled up over her Grey sweats. I moved on to her other foot and started massaging that. That's when Shalini brought her other foot against my face and gently stroked it with her foot. She touched my face all over, I felt the texture of her socks against my face, I just took it in and continued massaging her other foot. She then brought both feet to my face. "I know you enjoy these, she said wiggling her toes underneath her socks. I know these turn you on. I saw how you stared at them last night. Do they excite you baby?" She asked. I didn't respond, I knew what she said was right. She then brought them close to my mouth. "Kiss them baby" she ordered. I gave each one of her feet a small peck. "Keep going baby, kiss them all over." I grabbed her foot with my hand and started kissing all over her foot. Her toes the heel, the ridge, up past her ankle. I kissed it all and I was getting more and more turned on by the second. "Okay stop" Mommy ordered. She turned me around so inwas now facing her, sitting on the floor. She then lifted up one of her feet and brought it to my face. "Lick it" she ordered, and I did. I licked the bottom of her foot, from her heel and the way to the toes. Her white socks had a few dark stains on them from all the walking around the house. It didn't bother me though, for whatever reason, it made me more excited. I kept licking, mama put up her second's foot and I started licking that one too.

Mama then pulled her foot away and looked at me. She looked me in the eyes and said "Open up baby." I opened my mouth and she stuck her foot inside. I gagged on it and tried to pull away but mama stopped me, "NO, do not pull away. Suck on it, baby." I did and it excited me. The feeling of her socked foot in my mouth, the texture of the wool socks in my mouth was exciting me. I sucked on it for a few minutes until mama pulled her foot out. She placed both her feet back on the ground on either side of me and leaned in closer to me. "Did you enjoy that munchkin?" she asked with a smile. "Yes very much!!!" I said with entire excitement. "Good baby you deserved it! Now, why don't we get you to bed, it's getting past my baby's bedtime? With that, she scooped me up in her arms and carried me into my room. She didn't lay me in the crib right away. She rocked me in her arms, humming sounds in my ear while I slowly dozed off on her shoulder. The last I remember, I was being laid into the crib. I fell asleep thinking about my new life and how I was starting to really enjoy it.