A Pause - Part-2
A Pause - Part-23 mins 80 3 mins 80
One Week later…At home
“Where is Ishaan?” Ayaan asked.
“Ishaan is in hospital, as he is not well”, Riya said.
As time passed, slowly Ayaan got into his routine. And day-by-day realized that Ishaan will not come back. As a memory, he just knows that Ishaan was not well and admitted to the hospital. Ayaan lost his memory of that particular one week and the sight which he witnessed on that day.
In a few months, Ayaan was back to his normal routine. The pain was still there of Rahul and Riya’s heart and memories, but somehow, Rahul was managing with the big loss and continuing with his routine.
But, Riya was not. She was doing everything for Ayaan but completely stressed out because of that accident. She was not able to manage her stress. She was always in her thoughts with Ishaan, She wanted him back!
When Rahul and Riya shifted to that house with Ishaan and Ayaan, the first thing they worked was, increased the height of the balustrade (railing of the balcony). As the kids were small, shall start walking in a few months, better to have a childproof higher railing in the balcony. They made it a little higher, but not fully covered to touch the ceiling of the balcony.
During those few weeks after the accident, once Ayaan woke-up from the sleep and told this to Riya, “Mom, Ishaan didn’t listen to me. I told him you will fall, get down, but he said, don’t worry Ayaan, god is with me. He was climbing up on the railing Mom. But, while coming down, somehow he lost the balance and fall down.” Ayaan cried and slept again.
This conversation between Riya and Ayaan, he never recollects again.
On the other side, Riya was very depressed as she wanted her son back, which was not possible. After a few months, Rahul and Riya planned for a baby. The time passed away, and during her pregnancy too, she had the same thought, Ishaan will be back to her. She was waiting to see this little one, a new member in the family. She always used to say a Hindi phrase, “palak zapakte hi sab badal jana, aisa suna tha. Ab lagta hai, wo mere liye hi likha tha.” My world has changed in just few seconds.
After the accident, Rahul and Riya left that city. They shifted to a new city, Rahul got his job location transferred there. He thought, may be changed in place will give them little peace, because whenever they used to think about Ishaan in that house, always feeling had been the same. “Kaash hamne railing full covered bana li hoti to, aaj Ishaan hamare sath hota.”
Finally, the day, when Riya gave birth to the little one, an angel in their life!
And by god’s grace, they blessed with a cute baby girl! Riya was very happy, and a surprise was, the little girl was a complete resemblance of Ishaan. She looks very similar to Ishaan! Not a boy, but Riya was very happy and accepted the fact as “Ishaani”, they gave name to the little girl.
Ishaan will never come back, and the guilt about that balustrade (railing of the balcony) will always there with Rahul and Riya.
A learning for all who are reading or who can just share this incident with others in their learning. Nobody makes such mistakes knowingly, but few such incidents just happen and we realize it later. And guilt for it forever. Later we say, we can’t help it, or maybe it was decided by destiny for them etc.
But, we can do whatever is in our hands, or whatever we can do with our mindfulness.
Yes, it’s a real story and actual incident, which happened with one of my friends. I just tried to pen it down and gave words to feelings/emotions and the situation, which they had gone through.
Now, Ayaan is 9 years old and the little girl Ishaani is 5 years old, and again a happy family