Why Defeat Against Glory?

In the emptiness of my heart 

I am always unconscious about 

My new grief,

My teacher told me 

In business lecture 

To be aware of negative influence

Around you 

So as to tackle the obstacle 

Of dread journeys, 

But even though 

I find the awareness,

From whom should

I compete with?

I am scared to 

Touch the enemy within me 

Why I am stuck in a dessert of sorrows?

When I know to cross the maze,

Why I am sick of trying?

When I know that 

It'll glorify my strength,

I am keeping 

In prison the hope 

To touch the peak

The hope to smile again.