Where Are You Dad ????

Growing up without a dad wasn’t so bad.

I mean, you can’t miss what you never had.

It wasn’t until I got a little older

That I felt that soft tap on my shoulder.

That had me looking back on the past

Wondering where my dad was at.

I see my husband with our kids and I

Sometimes blink so that I won’t cry.

As I begin to realise

And start to ask why

I never had a dad to hold my hand

To show me what it’s like to trust a man

To walk me to school or yell at my games

I’m left incomplete without even his name

I see my daughters with their dad

And start to recognise what I never had

Wondering what he might be like

If his name is Tom, Bobby, Dennis or Mike

Do I look like him?

Would he recognise me?

I wonder if I have his eyes

Or maybe I have his teeth.

What would it have been like to have him around?

I wonder what he’d think of me now

I wonder if I’d make him proud

Would he tell me I’m beautiful and smart?

For his empty mantelpiece I’m his work of art?

Daddy I’ve missed you all these years

I’ve thought about you and shed some tears.

I wish I could have known you

Had you there to tell me what to do

Daddy I wish you were there to hold me

Keep me close, maybe console me.

I wish you had been there to protect me

Hug me kiss me and never reject me.

I know you didn’t know that I longed for you

And maybe you would have found me if you knew

I wonder how it feels to be held in daddy’s arms

Where I could feel safe and far from harm

To have you give me away on my wedding day

With all the words of wisdom I’d hear you say

I missed you on graduation day too

I looked into the stands but didn’t see you

I missed you when my children were born

I keep looking, waiting for you to walk through that door

But you didn’t come because you never knew

And Daddy, wherever you are – just know I love you.