Very Complex Personality

When I was small,

I was a jolly good fellow,

Not bothered much,

What's around,

Study a bit,

And play the rest of the day,

And have sound sleep at night,

Was the order of the day.

When I grew up a little,

I became too much serious,

In whatever I do,

Whether it's sports or academics,

I was ok with sports,

But in spite of best efforts,

Couldn't maintain percentage in studies,

Than even pulled out somehow,

And reached college.

In college, I took up science with mathematics,

As a subject,

I was normal,

Really picking well,

I think better than school,

But I had a problem,

Syllabi were very vast,

And for answering exams,

You get one holiday,

In between,

So I found it torturous to prepare for next exam within a day,

But there were my other fellows,

Who were bringing university records tumbling down,

Maybe my mind was not that sharp,

So it was a flop show,

I lost interest,

And left college,

Without having a degree in tow.

Then I tried to find a decent job,

But I am the stupid,

Who didn't understand,

How you will get a decent job,

Without a degree in tow,

But I continued,

On the other hand,

I continued my general studies,

Impact of this was,

That my awareness level,

Increased many folds,

But the search for a decent job continued,

When I lost the age of decent job,

I tried my luck in the Pvt sector,

Due to the contacts of my mom and Dad,

I became a clerk,

In a small company,

But I didn't leave studying,

So I continued to my old habit of studying,

Of course not academics,

I didn't like much this job,

And told my mom and Dad,

But they insisted on continuing.

Then my mother fell ill,

She suffered from bone marrow cancer,

From that, she couldn't recover,

And she passed away,

Meanwhile, I left that job,

And came back home,

While my mother was alive,

Both mom and Dad insisted,

On me getting married,

But I was adamant,

That first I must land up with a good job,

Then I will get married,

When they continued to convince me,

Then I said,

I want to marry a working woman,

But in spite of their best of efforts,

I couldn't find one.

Then I and my father were living comfortably,

While mother had gone to heavens,

Then one day we met an accident,

And my father was hit very hard,

So within a year,

He passed away.

While, as I told you,

I continued,

My habit of studying regularly,

My mind continued to be alert and sharp,

I used to write a letter to an editor,

And that used to get published,

Then I started writing poetry,

Got my first book poetry in Hindi,

I also started writing short stories, songs, scripts etc,

Now, fortunately, these are getting published,

But now I am alone,

The people who used to talk politely,

When mom and dad were alive,

Now started even abusing me.

So then I realized,

The true significance of one's parents,

But one thing I discovered,

Don't stop learning,

Continue it till you are alive.