Used To It
Used To It
10th September, '20
"It's nothing I guess",
I told myself,
on one of those days,
when I was down.
"You're used to it",
my brain whispered
as I saw it all,
crumbling around me.
15th September, '20
" I finally got a message! ",
I chirped excitedly,
'BIG SALE!', it said.
And then in no time
it happened again.
My insides shattered,
bit by bit.
But I was used to it.
3rd November, '20
As I put this online;
for the world to see,
I want to let you know,
what it might be.
This may seem surreal,
But friend, this is Real.
You know what's funny?
I called you 'friend',
But look at the irony,
I never had any.
Not that I am not liked,
it's just that I function differently,
a little too much maybe.
I've always seen people having someone,
who has their back,
never leaves their side,
Never makes them lonely.
'LONELY', as I speak,
is a difficult word, friend.
For years, I was used to it,
but now is the time it really hit.