Black Fungus

"Ok. People, now follow what I do."

Breathe in.... 

Ok, focus on the present now. 

Listen to him. Don't stray, don't stray... 

1...

What happens when I fail? 

Don't I deserve to be happy? 

Won't I ever get to be happy? 

What if all this struggle turns to nothingness?...... 2.....

Hush! Focus. Present. Present time. 

I'm tired to be honest. 

Tired of trying. 

Going nowhere. 

This damn knot in my chest. 

Never goes away... 3....

Breathe out...... 

I can't change what's about to happen. 

I might fail. 

Maybe again. 

Then again. 

Maybe I won't the next time. 

Amen.