Two Lives

I just realized that I have two lives

The one that I live and the other that I want to

The mornings that are lost in the surfing

of television channels, turning of newspaper

pages and boiling of tea

Against the mornings that are dreamt of

having gratitude, tranquility of mind,

breathing in the breeze and seeping in the sunrise

The time that is spent with the inrush of

panic, clench of anxiety, clutter of

mundane and plaintive matters

Against the time that is meant for

retrospection, leisurely smiles, carefree

laughter and the chase for eccentricities

The efforts to fit in, oozing out charm,

surrendering to the norms and trying the

regulations

Against the will and audacity to be a

maverick, following the uncommon and

daring to choose the less used paths

I just realized that I have two lives

The one that I live and the other that I want to

The one that captivates me and the

other that liberates

Given a chance I would choose the later

and that is what ought to gravely matter