The Real Me

I have always wondered what I want to do with my life. I wanted to become a software engineer, sometimes a researcher, a doctor sometimes and what not. But, as time passed by I cross marked or I can say I erased most of my school time dreams, but the most prominent one which I wasn't able to delete was software engineer. It was so stuck in my mind that I didn't want to leave it. Probably, I was in love with software engineering. But this is not the end my crazy heart found it's a new love in singing. I wanted to become a singer now. Honestly, my new love found its way via a singing reality show that aired on a channel. But, everything is not in your hand. By the time I realized I love singing; I was 16. And as for singing, it is said that one should start practising singing at a small age. I didn't dare to discuss it with my parents either. I kept it closed within my thick brain walls until I wasn't able to keep it within myself anymore. I finally told my parents, but I was 18 now doing my Btech.

Yes, I joined Btech, but you know what, I wasn't happy. The inner happiness which I was supposed to explore was nowhere to be found. I was in a constant dilemma even while deciding whether to choose a normal degree or Btech as my career option. I was in this maze now not able to understand which way will lead me to my ultimate door of dreams. I know if you want to learn something, you are never too young nor too old; but most of the times, we tend to ignore this fact. Maybe we are too afraid of the fact what will happen if I don't succeed in this field because you are taking a risk here. Anyway, not distracting from the topic I still was in my way of finding what I wanted and what I deserved, and I was sure by now that software was not my love. It was a mere attraction which made its way to reach me through relatives, my neighbour etc. But, something happened during my B.tech. I have always liked speaking but due to stage fright I never dared to do that, but I can't deny the fact I always wanted the host to call me and ask me to share my opinion. I know it is silly, but that is how I am. I wait for someone else to call which I guess is the biggest mistake. Anyhow, I finally got a chance to stand in front of not more than 50 students and explain my presentation. Well, a boot camp was organised in the university and thanks to my friends; I enrolled. It was a boot camp for entrepreneurship

. No, entrepreneurship was never on my list; I was excited because I'll get a chance to speak. I didn't mind if I would be asked a lot of questions on our prototype. All I thought was I was going to speak. Of course, my legs were shivering but at the same, my heart was racing with excitement. And that's when I discovered I love public speaking. Whenever I get a chance to speak, I make sure I do. Recently, due to corona outbreak, I had nothing to do. I took my laptop and started typing whatever I felt. I started writing stories thanks to my brother it was he who inspired me. And, since then I started writing, and I love it. I want to say, sometimes we may feel trapped out of circumstances and can't find a way, this is the knock that we have to stop because the door which we are trying to open is closed from inside. Till that time lets find the window and try to take a picture, it may not be clear as you are far, but who knows maybe that window is the key to invite the heavenly rays.