The First Time

When I am not thinking of you

Don’t you dare walk in like a breeze,

That leaves me weak on my knees!

When I am looking for nothing,

Don’t you dare show me your smile,

That disturbs my heart and soul in style!

When I am feeling numb of emotions,

Don’t you let the sparks flow through, while you walk holding my hand,

The sparks that my heartbeat doesn’t comprehend!

When I think I am far away from inconvenience,

Don’t you make my feelings crawl back to you,

that hasn’t healed yet, to pursue you!

When I have finally made peace with my past,

Don’t you dare do or say anything,

that feels like the first time all over again!!

Because, there’s nothing left for me to hear,

That hasn’t already cruised my self esteem,

and there’s nothing left for us to bear,

that hasn’t left us scarred!

There’s no feeling I haven’t felt,

and there’s no saying that wouldn’t derange the rhythm of my heart beat!

When I have decided I would never go anywhere near to the pain I have experienced,

Don’t make me fall for you again,

In a way that I could never be healed!

Instead, Make me fall in love with you,

Like I would never feel the necessity to be healed!

Make me fall for you,

Where I have no insecurities of being left alone!

Make me feel the pounding of my own heart,

With just the touch of your fingers!

Make my heart dance to it’s own beat,

Every time you walk towards me with a smile that’s electrifying!

Make me feel safe, even when I am lost in you

Make me fly high in your love,

Make me feel the touch of the skies,

Make me see the world in your eyes,

Make me feel everything in nothingness,

Make me feel the pride in holding the breath for you

Make me breathe in peace with you!!