The Desperate Son

Mornings were weird, and so were evenings in town

Every single day, my face had a big frown

Nights went by sleepless, cuz I had the blues

My dear mamma, where are you?

Every day I used to fool my mind, saying that everything is fine

Although it wasn't, as my hands used to tremble and I couldn't even draw a straight line

My brittle emotions, I always had to chew

My dear mamma, where are you?

Binge-watching series, trying to suppress my emotions

But all I had in my mind, were questions and never-ending commotions

Questioning my existence, wondering I was who

My dear mamma, where are you?

Tried so many things, but all went in vain

Only you were the one, who cared to understand my pain

Doubts and assumptions, my mind made me brew

My dear mamma, where are you?

Talked to friends, family and possibly everyone

Just to realize, for me cared no one

Cried, cried, cried... Achoo!!

My dear mamma, where are you?

Almost died trying to explain, but people didn't get it

To push me off the deck, the cruel ones misinterpreted

Panic attacks, anxiety attacks, nothing remained new

My dear mamma, where are you?

All I was asking, was for some emotional support

But I didn't even get, a regular attendance report

Tried various replacements, but realized nobody was like you

My dear mamma, where are you?

Help! Help! For always cried I

But my emotions just got a deep pan fry

I know you couldn't hear me, my fate I did sue

My dear mamma, where are you?

Now I can just pray so that God sends you back

Please, please mamma, please cut me some slack

Come soon mamma, I'll be waiting for you

My dear mamma, where are you? where are you? where are you?