That Chaos

Here, I stand waist-deep,

in this chaos,

letting go of the daggers,

letting go of the guns,

try to keep my head,

on the right level,

but I fail,

Because this chaos reigns over me.

Deep under water,

holding my breath,

counting to a million,

slipping,

as the unconsciousness comes with stealth,

find its way,

into my being,

but fails to enter my soul,

but when do I release it all,

letting it all go,

As I feel myself slipping underwater.

Oh! I see that sunlight,

but it can't reach me anymore,

too deep,

I am,

too fast asleep,

my voice,

can't reach anyone anymore,

nobody's ears hear the sound,

Not even a small whisper,

because even for the sunlight,

That chaos was too deep.