Such is life

When I was 7, 
I had a crush.
She was kind,
but very fitful.
But I moved, and slowly forgot

I met her again,
After a decade.
She's ethereal.
She had changed. A lot.
So close, yet so far.

When I was 16,
I felt the taste of love.
She called me to her. 
Beckoned me closer.
The days we spent together, 
Fresh as yesterday. 
The days I sat beside her, 
Ignoring all the world, 
Looking at her curling her hair,
Tapping her pencil,
Looking out of the window.
The late night calls, 
The class trip,
Her birthday.
It was all but a fleeting moment of felicity.
But the feelings were ephemeral.
I was not the one for her.
She left me, she left.
Never to connect ever again.

This time I'm too scared.
Too scared to try again.
What if I get left behind.
But a bigger fear of mine,
What if I leave her behind?
I cannot do it to someone. 
Not after I felt it.
I'm a frightened fellow.

So I have stopped trying.
Because I realized
Such is life.
We make friends,
We find love,
But all is left behind.
Such is life.