Shadows

I am haunted by your silence,

in a fit of rage, you decide you are leaving;

I crib to my echoing silences,

"Please stop him, he's leaving too soon".

the shadows perpetrate a gloomy look at me and smile,

"you are still scared of losing people?"

"Even after what you went through?".

what do I say?

I am shattered,

the shadows know,

I have been left, way too many times to be scared of being left again;

"But I don't want him to leave .....I...", I mumble,

the silhouette of all the people who have left me appear before my eyes, 

I shut my eyes because I am terrified of looking at them,

The old recurrences and the old patterns still scare me;

suddenly, I see your shadow in a far corner, 

I realize you have left,

you left even before you let me know.