Self-esteem

As I look in the mirror I don't see me anymore.

The vision of what people see is crystal clear.

I nothing more than a fat nasty bitch at least that's all I hear anymore.

Each day my self esteem thins more and more.

Now all I see is some nasty fat whore.

Call me more names so I fade away even more.

I'm hanging on by a little tiny thread.

It's almost possible for me to even be dead.

I would miss you guys even though

I'm still nothing but your joke

When you get bored is when you see me

Even then it just torments me.

All these tears I've cried being accused of being a lie.

I doubt I'll ever believe you loved me

When all that is left pain and heartache running through my veins.

Close my eyes and pray for God to take me away

I'd rather be angel then live my life feeling like nobody who always wants to commit suicide.