Resisting The Breakdowns...
Resisting The Breakdowns...
As I stood in front of the mirror,
I screamed out of fear,
My mom came inside
I said:
"I am okay"
The phrase I hate to say,
All the time
Even when I am not really fine with it.
Tears rolling down my cheeks,
I still feel "that's okay"
My heart thumping & racing faster
And then also,
I think "okay"
My brain is encountered
With multiple questions:
"is that really okay?"
And I nod my head, "yes".
Silence just not for seconds,
But till it creates a space.
Sobbing nights &
Starving days.
My inner voice asks:
"am I okay?"
I said," I don't know!"
No work, no fame:
No light, no fight.
A thing called hope awakens within:
It also says" it's just okay! Darling"
Now there is no more fear,
Making me much lighter like it was never before.
I realized, 'it was okay to be okay sometimes.