Ray Of Hope

On the verge of happiness and sadness, I found one ray of hope,

Ohh! So heart melting! So much elegance by God's grace!

I was afraid to have it,

I was afraid to chase,

I was afraid ….

Of not having it after chasing.

But it was blinking,

Just like calling me towards it.

I walked a little bit.

Ray was still there.

I ran.

It played hide and seek many times.

I became bemuse then.

I stop thereby.

Ahh! Ray blinked once again.

I walked towards it.

It was there for me.

Now, I walked little bit slowly to understand its magical effect.

But it became calm now, just like waiting for me.

Perhaps it also wants to embrace me and take me into its fantasy world. 

I walked.

It was there.

I tried to run towards it.

It was there.

I was running then.

It was still there.

My pace became high.

It was waiting for me.

I was running…

Sometimes it dimmed down.

Yet it was there for me.

My running…chasing...running...chasing…

Running…

I am near now.

I am just about to touch it.

It is beaming more now.

Looking more attractive, more elegant, more soothing.

I want to get into it.

It’s calling me now.

I am whispering. I am here, near you. Take me to your world. The world of your fantasy.

I am ready to fly now.

It’s ready to embrace me tightly.

Uh-oh, what is happening!!

The atmosphere is changing.

Dust is coming from nowhere.

In no time whirlwind absorbed everything around in it.

Everything is clear now.

Wind is calm now.

Everything is there in its previous state.

But where is the ray?

Here and there,

Aaah! I am chasing it like mad,

Furiously want to find it again.

Duh, it’s nowhere to be seen, my ray, my ray of hope.

I have lost it.

Maybe it was not mine ever.

Just was like my mirage ray of hope.

I am tired.

I am broke.

I have become weakest again.

I have become afraid once again.

And also became doubtful towards God’s grace.

Today I am,

A wracked soul.

Completely, A broken soul.

                                                                                                                                               

Jalpa Makwana