Putting Myself First Before

Holding my hands in yours, you told me to always love you ;

And I kept loving you with all I had.

Wrapping me in your arms, you told me to be always with you;

And I kept walking beside you losing my own footsteps.

Placing my face between your hands, you told me to wait for you;

And I kept waiting for you hopelessly.

Pecking my forehead, you told me to trust you no matter what;

And I kept trusting you with my eyes shut.



Shoving me away with your hatred, you told me you never deserved me;

And I kept convincing myself that you deserved better.



Pulling me together with your love, you told me to give us one more chance;

And I kept giving you chance after chance.



Winding your soul with mine, you told me I was nothing without you;

And I kept living in a world that revolved around you.



Severing yourself from me, you told me to leave you ;

And that was when I faltered.

And that was when I halted, to cast a last glance at you.

And that was when I fragmented, trying hard to not wilt away while you kept blooming.

And that was when I smiled while rending myself apart from the maze of delusion and lies.

And that was when I set my foot on the journey to love myself,

Rather than bleeding with the guilt of not putting myself first before you.