Pain

There's a pain that's inside of my soul

It's the one That Is hidden

For years and years

It's awake as an infinite soul

Revolving inside me

Stumbling over and over again

I have been living with a shadow overhead

Have been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

What was utmost now is rusted

All I ever wanted to get trusted 

But it tore me apart

I never knew I could ever get this much hurt

Now There's no door

To escape this fear

They all scream shout roar

That is all I get to hear

But I find no peace near

They say Oh dear

Never cry

Or drop a tear

I say I am rare

Don't you scare me

Don't you even dare?

All my life I have been fighting for something

I didn't know

I have given my everything to build a 

False show

Now it's all gone

Leaving behind scars and misfortune 

With its shadows and dirty tune

Which I blindly consumed 

Now I look back in regrets

I should have never listened to them 

Could have done what my heart wanted

But now its all gone

Heaven never existed if hell didn't arrive

Faith is born when bees decide to leave their hive

Now I know

That everything is fake

Until you build you own paradise

All there is at stake

You dont need drivers license to ride in passenger seat

Better ride on your own to be the misfortune of Mr. Fit

And then shine like a diamond

Cuz they say 

Oh dear

Don't cry

Don't scream

Don't shed a tear

I know I am rare

Gonna shine like diamond

Thats how I am gonna appear 

Wont let any trouble come near

I will not this time fear

Is it just me or

Is there anybody 

Feels the way that I feel

They are just not being real 

I slam doors beg mercy 

But I find no peace

It's all frozen and ice

world goes on and on

Like a window at its dawn

But I walk alone the road

Walk past ocean and the rolling stone

Fake accusation drives me crazy

They all lie words are hazy

I feel all alone in the crowd

Like a silence no one heard this loud

The cage is open

I cant get out

My wings are broken 

I get chances but still I doubt to fly

Cuz if I fall 

It's me who's gonna cry

So I take a leap of faith

But sometime it was early now its too late

But they all hold me back

Gave me anxiety and panic attack

My doubts are ancient

Destiny is unclear

My fate is conspicuous

Aftermath is all I am gonna fear

Once a doubt kick me out

My truth speak shout They let me in

They broke my heart

New I am shattered within

I dont know what I am gonna do

I dont feel like something brand new

My heart is now turned into dew

But someday it's gonan rain

Even if it's few

I climb up

Then fall out 

If they didn't trust

How come they doubt??

I never misbehaved

I didn't lie

If my truth speaks for me 

Why do I cry?

Is it too late to say 

But my eyes cant portray

My pain 

All effort went to vain

Now I fear the clouds when its gonna rain

Cuz drak clouds and shadows gave me nothing but stain

I bent down

My faith cracked up

They took the crown

But it's all right now

Cuz I know 

I am sufficient 

I can live on my own

If I don't survive

Who's gonna bear the pain

Of the throne