Not Enough

Studying for hours ignoring my desires,

I taught myself to sacrifice my happiness

Learnt new hobbies,

cried all night for success

But still, I wasn't enough.

When the clock strikes three,

My thoughts are let free

Shivering hands and sweaty palms

With my pillow in my arms,

I lay on my bed,

 staring at the ceiling wondering 

Why am I not enough?

Gaining weight because of stress,

Stressing because of gaining weight

Seems endless, doesn't it?

Sleepless nights and restless days,

Thinking about "what if i am overweight?"

Got back on my feet,

Lost some weight,

Studied a little more and groomed myself

Am I enough now?

Yes, I always was.

(At least for me...)