No Clear Destination
No Clear Destination
I was walking alone. Alone...to where I didn't know. I walked without a clear destination in my head.
All that I wanted was to run away from reality. I questioned myself, 'How do I matter to this world?'
Then came the answer from within, 'Even if you mattered, people will know to survive without you, that's how life is!'.
I was poisoned by all possible sorts of negativity that I couldn't get myself to knock down the weakness that surrounded me.
I chose to walk and find the purpose of my life for I had lost everything I thought was once mine which wasn't.
I was refilled with blackness or may I called it null to a nothingness?
The poison was so effective that it was enough to start emptying me.
I was eaten, up to 90% and another 10% could have got me dead
but the torch of substance was unforgettable.
I could have wished to live in the same state for ages to just have an opportunity to touch the torch.
I wanted to walk a little more towards it, but I could sense that the more I walked, the more difficult it was to me to sustain myself.
I chose to pause this time, I didn't have a choice. I let go of my state of being and simply watched the torch.
I simply stared. I did nothing else.
My black was turning white.
99.99% eaten was being made again from 0.00001%. I was a new soul. I got a new recognition.
What I left behind was taken by the torch for it gave me my new me.
And the 'me' had nothing to do with 'I'.