My Nightmare Dreary

I wake up screaming from my nightmare full of rage

Afraid of my errors through the years

I only wish I could look at you without it haunting me

I can feel you watching me everywhere I go.

You just don’t understand my tears are turning black

In the sorrow of the black rose

The entity of my freedom.

I can’t lie to myself or to you

But you’re too far to see me

I can’t have you back and the pain is killing me slowly

I never knew I could miss someone so much 

Though we were both treated badly

I truly tried, I just can’t do it anymore.

I can’t go on knowing you aren’t with me

Suppressed in your black cloud of hate and burden

You fool yourself and avoid your feelings for me

Though maybe it’s me, I can’t see that you truly don’t have any feelings left

This stage is hopelessness.

You have left me behind and I’m bound in your pain

Your face with its haunting ways, haunting my dreams forever

I can’t seem to leave you behind

Though you are showing me you’ve left me.

Never knowing your feel or love-touch again

I’m lost without you and though wanting to be lost again, I can’t 

To be with you would only make it worse.

The lost remembrances of what we had

All I know

All you have forgotten.

I wish I could love you like I did

But my dreams of dark skull nightmares drift over me

Taking me over

Before I had ever started to heal

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