Meant To Be

Weren't we just to meant to be?

Together with holding each other. 

Telling how we never wanna break free. 

Smiling, crying holding tight. Close to your heartbeat. 

My head on your chest listening to the rhythmic beat of the heart I once owned. 

Today sitting on my bed once which was our's I cry. 

Crying as my mind keeps reminding me of those beautiful nights we shared,

Wrapped in each other's arms. 

Days during which you would hold me from behind while I cooked your favorite pasta.

Kissing under the shower as your hands wash my soul clean. 

Thinking about all those nights in which you held me close and loved every inch of my body.

Worshipped the souls melting in each other as we became one.

I can still shape you when I close my eyes, your beautiful eyes, and that ruffled hair. 

Now you are just a faded memory in my head. 

The scar which tells a story I am scared to share. 

And when I open my eyes today I only feel so lonely,

Because I realize I'm all alone without you by my side. 

And that my lips are not on yours anymore and I don't have your arms to make me feel safe.

Without the sound of your heartbeat close to me, mine seems to stop. 

When the world is moving I feel like running away, away from the life I never wished to be in. 

A life without you. 

I don't have you anymore. 

I'm all alone, but this was your fault and I was blamed. 

Tears were real and situations were blamed. 

We couldn't keep going.

We couldn't keep our promises. 

It was killing you and it killed me. 

Today dead in my dreams. I free my soul from the pain I never wanted to gain. 

These drops of blood will tell you the rest of the story. 

The story you never heard. 

Long lost was my love, dead was my soul and hidden were my feelings.