Love Me As I'm

Well, on some days you'll find me caring too much about simple and obvious things,

While on others you'll find me careless and not giving a damn about what's going on in my life,

Not even about the complexities and unusual things happening around me.

That's how I am.

Too tired to fight now.

I let things happen the way they are happening,

Because somewhere I have a strong belief in the idea that this is how they're supposed to be.

That's how I am.

Too scared to mould them in a way I want it to happen. Because there's a fear in me of messing up everything which otherwise would have turned out to be something beautiful.

On some good days, you'll find me cheerful,

On the others you'd find me dull, exhausted, giving up on everything.

That's how I am,

That's how messed up as a person I am.

I don't expect you to understand me,

I don't expect you to respect me either for what I'm.

All I want you is to ignore me,

Because I am very much used to it.

I demand freedom,

I want to be left alone,

I hate crowds,

Would you love me the way I am?

Well, I don't expect you to.

On some nights, I would getaway,

I would walk for miles and miles to a place you can't reach,

I demand peace,

I wish to be with myself at times and not with you.

Let me tell you that you cannot give me everything I wish for,

Because you ain't capable enough.

That's how I am.

I suck at lying on your face,

I speak my heart out,

I don't care about what you might feel,

I don't expect you to stay with me.

But I definitely want you to.

Did I say, I speak my heart out?

I would want you to know,

That it does not go the same way, every time.

I often prefer silence over words,

I often prefer leaving and letting go,

Instead of expressing and being rejected.

Well, That's how I am.

I hold too many fears inside me.

I am way too much broken to be mended now,

Would you still love me the way I am?

I suggest you, not to.