Joker

I evaluate my life

To make sure that when I leave

I'll leave a story behind

A tale filled with passion and aggression

Love and hate

With everything that has been and everything there wasn't.

How would I present it

Is still a quest.

Crying has been hard now

I've got no tears left

Altho the aches in my heart

And bruises inside

Puts a different show.

Laughing became easy

Not the genuine one

I've learned the mantra

Fake it till you make it 

I'll make it there

With steps steady.

Living is a job

As much as I hate it

I have to do it because there's no other option

Quitting was never one

Quitting is not my job

I saw my life

The days I've lived

6,935 to be explicit

As a tragedy

Heartbreaks and hurts

Screams and cries

Always looking for that happy ending

I would describe it as well written play

Now I'm waiting for my afterlife

Comedy. Thats what I have become

With the thriven necessity to laugh 

Not at others but at my own self

Because when you get all that

Gossip depression and anxiety

You slowly turn into

The scary image if yourself

The one which haunts you and makes you laugh

Which we say the laughing ones

Joker, that's where it ends that's what we become.