INSIDE OUT!!

I might look at ease from outside,

But inside I am at war with my own self

I might look at peace from outside,

But inside I'm kinda depressed.

I might look lifted up from outside,

But inside I'm a little suppressed. 

Confused about the noise from outside,

Making way out of the chaos inside ..

Seems like I'm lost .seem as if it's all over 

No light I see, no way I find . 

Just paving my own pathway 

With my tiny little motivated thoughts. 

But still know where I'm heading .

It all seems dark now .. 

But I know there will be light somewhere.

But clueless about that ray of hope

And finding my self away from home

Just walking on the path 

of my passion and my dreams

Nd hoping that it leads ..

 to where I must be 

But still blind to the way it leads .

I know I'll reach where I wish to be 

But still a doubt is deep inside me 

Hidden just like me .. 

somewhere in the dark.

 and not knowing where the road may lead 

Preparation for worst is necessary 

But hoping for the best is also a thing 

Called motivation .. a way to keep going 

But fear of losing things weighs me down

How do I travel on a road which is outside

When I'm just sitting clueless inside

Knowing nothing but just despair

And hoping for everything to be the best

That road seems right. 

Full of light is there outside 

But the darkness within me thinks

What if it turns out to be awry 

Sandwiched between the conditions,

Conditions of the outside paths 

And my inner suppressed state . 

Waiting for the right time . 

Hoping for the best .

I know that time will come,

But when ...I'm clueless

I just hopes it comes soon 

So my fear could end 

My despair could vanish 

My anxiety could fly away 

Somewhere very far away 

My smile will be back 

And so will my faith

My hope will be constant 

Change won't scare me 

I just hope I get what I want 

And amidst all these 

I'll get my happiness back 

Inside I'll be at peace 

Outside Ill have a big smile 

Inside I'll win the war 

And outside I'll shine ..