I Am Not...

I'm not perfect

I'm far from it

I tell myself I'm sorry

But my mind won't accept it

My sense of humour is warped

I guess my filter is broken

These are my excuses

True words are unspoken

Am I afraid?

I don't want to get hurt again

Push all you like but

I just can't let you in

I will stay closed

And not walk into the open

Sometimes I'll say

Stuff that I don't even mean

Because you react and it keeps you away from me

I know I'm not a bad person

I wish I would let you see

I know I'm alone

My heart aches for affection

I don't want to hurt you

So I'll live in detention

I'm so sorry

I'm not perfect

I'm not perfect

I'm not

I'm not

I'm not

I'm not

I am...

Am I?

Am I even human?