Holier than thou

I am sorry if I hurt you in any way

with my harsh words or behaviour

please find it in yourself to forgive me

I don't want to lose another friend.

can't recall the number of

times I'd said these words

to a girl on social media.

they'd ghost me for no reason

and I always thought it was me

who'd done something wrong.

my self-esteem sank and drowned

until guilt couldn't be more embedded

into my bone marrow and then

I realized the problem lied with

these bitches, not me.

not all were propagandistic feminists,

closeted LGBTQ+ people or

E. B. Browning fantasies, but

nutcases most of them were.

they wanted to

ride a Royal Enfield

or Harley Davidson bike

to be aimless and loved

to be lost in the wild and found

yet they didn't want that

person to be me.

'cause I'd take a scalpel and

tear away all those layers of

pitch black deceit and glamour

expose their dirty, wet laundry.

they wanted to

rip me apart

crumble every fucking Inch of my being

take hold of my sanity until nothing

but a void remained -

a husky obese shell of

ailments grappling with

Madness.

I don't want to extract revenge

but I'm sick of being treated

like a domesticated animal.

I didn't want their pity

duplicity sympathy or

hypocritic kindness.

if they can't even

offer friendship or love

those c**ts better

F**K OFF.